《我们的生活》前情回顾 Previously on This Is Us...
我不会去参加那个临床试验 兰德尔 I'm not gonna do that trial, Randall.
而且我真的不想听 And I really don't want to hear
你们任何一个人来说什么 what either of you has to say about it
因为我已经为我自己做出了决定 because I have made the decision for myself.
这也许能救她的命 This could've saved her life.
难道你就没有想过如果爸没有去世 Don't you ever wonder what it would've been like
一切是否会有所不同吗 if Dad hadn't died?
我没想过 兰德尔 你想过吗 No. I don't, Randall. Do you?
爸爸 要是你回到了房子里 我对天发誓 Dad, if you go back in that house, so help me, God,
我一定会冲进大门 亲自救你出来 I'll go through that front door and get you myself!
杰克... Jack! Oh...
每一天都会想 Every single day.
自从我问了我哥那句话之后 I haven't been able to stop thinking about it
我就不停地在想 since I asked my brother,
如果我爸没有去世 我的生活会怎样 what my life would be like if my dad hadn't died.
你觉得会有哪些不同呢 What do you think would've been different?
我们的生活 第四季 第十七集
一切都 It's all just...
烧毁了吗 gone?
对 Yeah.
你不在场应该感到庆幸 You're lucky you weren't there.
好 All right.
给你 Here you go.
-谢谢 -到处都是水 - Thank you. - Waters all around.
你们有什么想吃的吗 Hey, uh, you guys need anything else?
我可以帮你们热点吃的 I can heat up some food for you to eat,
-或者... -不用了 谢谢 - or... - No, thank you.
-不了 谢谢你 -妈 爸 - No. Thank you. - Mom, Dad.
-你们... -小凯 大家还好吗 - Guys... - Hey, Kev. Is everyone okay?
-亲爱的 天哪... -你还好吗 - Hi, sweetheart. God... - Are you okay?
没关系 我没事 Yeah, no, no, no, I'm fine.
对 我没事 我没事 Yeah, no, I'm fine. I'm okay.
-小宝贝 -妈妈 - Hi, baby doll. - Hi, Mom.
只是轻度烧伤 Just some minor burns.
医生说我不会有事 Hey, the doctor said I'm gonna be fine.
他说我只吸入了少量烟尘 He said the smoke inhalation was minimal.
谢天谢地你没回屋里去 Yeah, thank God you didn't go back in the house.
是啊 谢天谢地消防员救出了路易 Well, thank God that fireman actually got to Louie.
否则我一定会内疚一辈子 I wouldn't be able to live with myself.
-路易还好吗 -应该没事 - He okay? - Yeah, I think so.
好 Okay.
大家听我说 Hey, guys, listen to me.
我们会没事的 We're all gonna be fine.
-是啊 -对吧 我们大家都在 - Yeah. - Right? We're here, together.
这才是最重要的 That's all that matters.
这个家就是最重要的 This family is the only thing that matters.
我刚跟警方通完电话 So, I just got off the phone with the police.
他们已经完成了现场的清理工作 They have officially cleared the house.
我打算过去看看还剩什么 I'm gonna go over there and see what's left,
看看还能不能抢救一下 see if there's anything salvageable.
小贝 Bec.
我们会找到临时住处的 We'll find temporary housing.
-不 宝贝 我... -别担心 我们... - No, no, no, babe, it's-it's... - Okay? We...
不是因为房子 It's not about the house.
我们真的是死里逃生 I mean, we, we could have died.
这让我 And it just...
让我忽然想通了很多事情 it-it puts things in perspective, you know?
比如呢 Like what?
比如... Like...
比如一些应该说出来的心里话 Things you know you should share,
因为太难开口所以选择不说 but you don't because it's hard.
就这样一天天过去 And... time goes by.
随着时间渐渐过去 最后你... And then more time goes by, and eventually you're...
我有话要跟你说 I have to tell you something.
兰德尔 Randall?
米格尔带着凯特和凯文 Hey, uh, Miguel took Kate and Kevin
去买必需品了 to go buy some essentials.
我在查你之前问起的那个 I'm looking up that info you asked about,
火灾保险政策 the fire insurance policy,
-我在查... -儿子 先等等 - you know... - Son, just...
怎么了 What's wrong?
出什么事了 What happened?
妈妈 你吓到我了 Mom, you're really freaking me out.
亲爱的 Sweetheart.
你还是个婴儿的时候 When you were a baby...
我见过你父亲 ...I met your father.
你的亲生父亲 Your birth father.
我... My...
我的什么 My-my what?
怎么会 How?
他当时就在医院外面 He, he was hanging around outside the hospital,
我跟着他去了他的公寓 and I followed him back to his apartment.
但是亲爱的 你得理解我 But, sweetheart, you have to understand,
他的状态不好 he was not well, okay?
他是个瘾君子 于是我就走了 He was an addict and I, I-I got out of there
从此没有跟任何人提起 and I never said anything to anyone.
几年后我想再回去看看... And then I tried to go back years later...
等等 Wait, wait, wait, wait.
这么久以来 你一直认识他 This whole time, you knew who he was?
却一直瞒着我 You just kept it secret from me?
-这么多年 -不 不是的 - All these years. - No, no, no, no, no.
他也是五分钟前才刚知道 He just found out five minutes ago, okay?
他叫什么名字 What's his name?
他叫什么名字 What is his name?!
威廉 William...
威廉·希尔 William Hill.
对不起 对不起 I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
-别碰我 -好 - Stop, stop. - Okay, okay.
你知道他住在哪里吗 Do you know where he lives?
我不知道他是否还住在那里 但我可以... Um, I don't know if he still lives there, but I can,
-我可以带你去他几年前住的地方 -不用 - I can show you where he lived years ago. - No, no, no.
把地址给我就行 我自己去 Just give me the address. I'll go by myself.
-不行 -不 我必须去 爸爸 - No, you won't. - No. I need to do this, Dad.
我知道 I know. I know.
我陪你一起去 I'll go with you.
-爸 -怎么 - Hey, Dad? - Yeah?
这一切 我... This isn't-- I...
这不是因为你 This isn't about you.
我不是因为你才想见他 我... Uh, l-like, wanting to meet him. I...
没关系 我知道 Yeah, no, I know.
没关系 Yeah, it's okay.
好像就是这里 I think this is it.
准备好了吗 You ready?
好 Yeah.
有何贵干 Can I help you?
你是威廉·希尔吗 Are you William Hill?
据说是吧 Last I checked.
我叫兰德尔·皮尔森 My name is Randall Pearson.
我想我是你儿子 I think I'm your son.
名列前茅 Top of your class.
真厉害 That's something.
我能说什么 Hey, what can I say?
我刻苦学习 I work hard.
没想炫耀什么 Not trying to brag or anything.
我们为他感到很骄傲 We're very proud of him.
你会什么乐器吗 Well, so, uh, do you play any instruments?
那个 Oh, well,
我在家里不算有音乐天赋 I'm not really the musical one in the family.
我姐姐凯特有音乐天赋 My sister Kate is.
她遗传了我妈 我的养母 She gets it from my mom. My adopted mom.
兰德尔 Randall.
说起这个 Uh, speaking of,
我想你能不能多告诉我一些 I was wondering if you could, uh, tell me more about
我生母的事 my biological mom?
你知道那种 Do you know the feeling you get
吸一小口炙热的东西的感觉吗 when you take a sip of something hot?
罗瑞尔就是那样的人 That was Laurel.
她是直达你灵魂的热饮 She was a warm drink straight to your soul.
她怀孕的时候就就戒毒了 She stopped using when she was pregnant,
不过你一出生 but right after you were born...
老毛病复发 Old habits.
她没撑过去 She didn't make it.
而我 我一点也不懂 And me, I... I didn't know the first thing
怎么一个人养孩子 about raising a baby on my own.
我们从来不是不想要你 You were never not wanted.
实际上 In fact...
很久之前我为你写了这些 ...I wrote these for you a long time ago.
我从没想过除了我还会有别人会看到它 I never thought anyone else would see it besides me.
《写给儿子的诗》 威廉·希尔著
我下周可以再去吗 Maybe I can go back next week?
兰德尔 我真的觉得你应该 You know, Randall, I really think you should
降低一下你对这个人的期待 temper your expectations of this guy,
就一点点 just a little bit.
你什么意思 What do you mean?
他人很好 He was a very nice man.
但我觉得 他可能还有毒瘾 But I think, I think he might still be using.
-所以呢 -所以我真的不愿意 - So? - So I'm really not too comfortable
我儿子跟那样的人 with my son spending time with a guy who's...
-拜托 爸 -共处 - Come on, Dad. -...involved with that.
爸 你也有酒瘾 Dad, you're an addict, too.
拜托 Please.
最近对我家来说很艰难 It's been a tough time for my family lately.
我是从 From the, uh,
《美国歌本》里 挑了些重复乐段... American Songbook, these are riffs that I've been...
路易斯·阿姆斯特朗爵士专辑
我已经很久没有像这样 It's been a long time since I've spoken
跟一屋子人说话了 to a room full of people like this.
我一直在想 So I've been thinking,
我可能会留在家这边上大学 I'm probably gonna stay home for college,
去卡内基梅隆大学 go to Carnegie Mellon.
但你被霍华德大学录取了 But you got into Howard.
我以为那是你的首选 I thought that was your top choice.
之前是 但 It was, but...
我想多相处一下也很好 I-I thought it'd be nice to spend more time together.
对吧 Right?
对 Right.
很好 That's cool.
亲爱的 如果你忘了什么东西 Hey, sweetheart, if you did forget anything,
我们都愿意开车给你送过去 we'll be happy to drive it over to you.
你确定你不想让我跟你们一起 You sure you don't want me to come with you guys
帮你安顿 and help you move in?
车里塞满了 The car's pretty packed,
真的就只有我们两个人的空间 so there's only really room for two of us.
好吧 Okay.
我去跟凯文和凯特道别 I'm gonna go say bye to Kevin and Kate.
好 Okay.
他只是还要理理思路 He's just sorting through everything.
-好吧 -好吗 - Yeah. - Okay?
他会想明白的 He'll come around.
对不起 I-I'm sorry.
没关系 No problem.
贝丝 我们很高兴今晚你能来 Beth, we are so thrilled to have you here tonight.
这是第一次 This is the first time we've had
孩子们都从大学回家了 all of our kids home from college at the same time.
谢谢你邀请我 Oh, thank you for having me over.
我带了点小东西 Oh, I-I brought, uh, a little something.
你不用客气的 Oh, you didn't need to do that.
-你不必 -就是个小礼物 - You don't... - It's just a little gift.
你不用给我们带 辣酱 You don't need to bring us a g-- whoa! Hot sauce?
不不 拿过来 No, no, give that here.
我爸生前也超爱辣酱 Uh, my-my dad loved hot sauce, too.
他总是带着辣酱 Uh, he always brought it with him
到我们去的每一家当礼物 to every house we went as a gift.
但那其实不是礼物 他只是想 But it wasn't actually a gift, he just wanted
他只是想确保自己总能吃到辣酱 to make sure he always had hot sauce.
兰德尔跟我们说过 Randall told us that, um,
他去年过世了 that he passed last year.
听到这个 我们感到很遗憾 We were very sorry to hear that.
我不能想象 Yeah, I can't imagine going through
在你这个年纪经历那一切 亲爱的 all of that stuff at your age, sweetheart.
我们真的不应该让她 Yeah, we really shouldn't make her
现在谈这个 妈 talk about it right now, Mom.
-对不起 -不 - I'm sorry. - No, it...
-不不不 没关系的 -抱歉 - No, no, no, no, it's-it's fine. - I'm sorry.
-没事的 -谢谢 - It's fine. - Thank you.
这礼物很棒 This is, uh, wonderful.
亲爱的 Sweetheart,
你觉得你的沙拉怎么样 我只给你一个人 how do you like your salad? I added those
加了小小的白杏仁 little slivered almonds in there just for you.
我不太喜欢杏仁 Don't really like almonds.
什么 What?
什么时候不喜欢的 Since when?
从来没喜欢过 Never have.
你能带我去一下洗手间吗 Could you show me where the bathroom is?
穿过厨房就是 It's right through the kitchen.
你能给我带个路吗 Can you show me?
很好吃 妈 It's good, Mom.
我挺喜欢杏仁的 I like the almonds.
你刚才点头是"救救我"的意思 Was that a "rescue me" head nod
还是"我想溜出去快速亲热一下"的意思 or a "I want to go sneak in a quick make-out" head nod?
其实是"别对你妈态度那么恶劣"的意思 That was a "quit being such a dick to your mom" head nod.
你得原谅她 You need to forgive her.
贝丝 你并不了解情况 Beth,you don't know what you're talking about.
-你不知道我... -我随身带着辣酱 - You don't know how I... - Look, I carry bottles of hot sauce
因为它让我想起我去世的爸爸 because they remind me of my dead dad.
而你有不止一个 而是两个 And you get not one, but two,
健在 呼吸尚存 living, breathing,
异常炫酷的爸爸 好吗 really freaking cool dads, okay?
生命很短暂 兰德尔 Li... life is short, Randall.
实在太短了 It's too damn short.
于是爸跳进去把凯文拉出了猪圈 So Dad hops in to grab Kevin out of the pig pen.
而他在大喊大叫 因为他喜欢那头猪... And he's screaming because he's decided he loves this pig...
她在县集市的表演夺了头筹 She won best in show at the county fair.
那在我五岁时是件大事 It was a big deal when I was five.
于是我 凯特 和妈 So-so me, Kate and my mom
在围栏外 简直吓坏了... are outside the fence, terrified...
我们简直喊破了嗓子 We were screaming.
-你记得吗 -记得 - You remember that? - Yep.
那种哭嚎 你记得吗 Crying? You remember that?
当然 我怎么可能忘呢 Yes, how can I forget?
话说 你想讲这部分吗 Actually, do you want to tell this part?
你讲得更好 You tell it better.
那头... The...
那头小猪开始尖叫 然后 The little pig started squealing and then
全身糊满泥巴的小凯文 muddy little Kevin over here
也开始尖叫 started squealing right back.
然后杰克开始尖叫... And then Jack started squealing...
记得兰德尔六年级的一天 I remember picking Randall up from school
我从学校接他回家 one day in, uh, sixth grade.
他在研究元素周期表 And he was studying the periodic table.
他特别激动地给我讲居里夫人 He was so excited to tell me about Marie Curie
和他丈夫皮埃尔的故事... and her husband Pierre...
他们共同发现了镭和钋 who had discovered radium and polonium together.
这孩子当时才11岁 Kid's 11.
然后我记得他对我说 And I-I remember him saying to me,
"爸爸 我想和一个 "Dad, I want to marry someone
能和我一块发现新元素的人结婚" I can discover elements with."
让我们举杯 Let's raise our glasses.
-敬兰德尔和贝丝 -敬兰德尔和贝丝 - To Randall and Beth. - To Randall and Beth.
这就是你名字苔丝的由来 And that is how you got the name Tess.
源于一个独一无二的吊扇 Because of a ceiling fan of all things.
第一个孙女简直完美 对吗 Pretty perfect first grandkid, huh?
我太同意了 No complaints here.
我能看看吗 Mind if I join?
来吧 她爷爷 Come on in, Grandpa.
你好 小美人 Hey, beautiful.
好了 All right.
火腿开始烤了 Ham's in the oven.
其他人两点到 Everyone's arriving at 2:00.
皮尔森圣诞大餐正在加紧筹备 The Pearson Christmas Feast is right on track.
要水果蛋糕吗 Fruitcake?
不了 我的胃不太舒服 Nah, stomach's a little funny.
又难受了 Again?
我们很少在早期阶段发现胃癌 We rarely catch stomach cancer in its earliest stages.
你真的很幸运 You are a very lucky man.
幸运的是我有这么个烦人的儿子 Lucky my boy here's a relentless son of a gun.
好了各位 凑近一点 Hey, guys, gather round.
让我快点照张照片 Let me get this picture real quick.
大家一起说 "感恩节热狗裹着起司" Everybody say, "Thanksgiving hot dogs wrapped in cheese."
感恩节热狗裹着起司 Thanksgiving hot dogs wrapped in cheese!
好样的 Yeah!
好的 等等 别走 Okay, wait, no.
我也想照一张 I want to get one, too.
用我的手机... On my phone...
我把手机放到哪了 Where did I put my phone?
不 等一下 刚才还在这 No, wait, hold on a sec. It was just here.
-怎么了 亲爱的 -我找不到手机了 - What's wrong, hon? - Can't find my phone.
我来帮你找 丽贝卡 I'll help you look for it, Rebecca.
我刚才还用过 I just had it.
她又把手机放丢了 She misplaced her phone again.
很抱歉得打断你一下 兰德尔 I'm sorry to interrupt you, randall,
但我猜之后你和你爸会 but I suspect that you and your father are about
联合起来拯救你母亲对吗 to band together to save your mother?
我想梳理下你的思路 So I'm just trying to keep track here.
在这个你父亲在世版本的人生中 In the version of your life where your father lives,
你很快找到了你的生父 you immediately find your birth father,
帮他戒了毒 get him clean,
你父母的婚姻保持存续 your parents' marriage survives,
你的妻女没有变化 you have the same wife and kids,
你治愈了胃癌 cure stomach cancer,
然后你让你母亲接受了临床试验治疗 and you get your mother into this clinical trial?
对 我觉得这些事会发生 Yeah, that's what I think would've happened.
明白了 Gotcha.
你身后的柜子里 There's scrabble and Connect Four
有拼字游戏和四子棋 in the cabinet behind you.
你还得在这坐半个小时 You're in that chair for another half an hour.
要么我们玩会游戏 要么你开始说实话 We could either play games or you could be honest.
你定 Your choice.
我不明白 I don't understand.
你让我说说我的设想 You asked for my version.
不论是否过分乐观 Rose-colored or not,
那就是我所想的 that's what I gave you.
兰德尔 我们刚开始咨询时 Randall, when we started working together,
你让我质疑你 you asked me to challenge you.
现在我们再试一次 Now let's try this again.
这次 告诉我 This time tell me
如果那晚你父亲幸存下来 what scares you the most about what could have happened
你最怕发生的事情是什么 if your father survived that night?
求你说点什么吧 Please say something.
你想让我说什么 What do you want me to say?
说你... That you...
理解我那么做的原因 understand why I did it?
你见过我们儿子的生父 You met our son's birth father
然后却瞒了我十七年 and then you lied to me about it for 17 years.
我该怎么理解这种事 What am I supposed to understand about that?
理解成我本意是想保护他 That I was trying to protect him.
保护他干什么 Protect him from what?
威廉当时病了 William was sick.
他是个瘾君子 He was an addict.
我 我很担心 I was, I was worried
他想把兰德尔从我们身边带走 he would want to take Randall away from us.
其实我们本来可以一家人 Well, then we could have dealt with that
共同面对 together as a family.
但你私自做了决定 But you made that call on your own.
你... You...
你错了 小贝 You were wrong, Bec.
天呐 你大错特错 My God, you were so wrong.
我很多次都想告诉你的 I wanted to tell you so many times.
那你为什么不说 Then why didn't you, huh?
因为我很害怕 Because I was scared.
而且我知道你会做 And I-I knew that you would want to do
你认为对的事 what you thought was right.
我真的很抱歉 And I'm-I'm sorry.
对不起 杰克 I'm sorry, Jack.
我真的很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
我现在都没法直视你了 I can't even look at you right now.
我认识的丽贝卡 The Rebecca that I know?
不可能做这种残忍的事 She isn't capable of something this cruel.
不会阻止我们的儿子 She is not capable of keeping our son
去见他的生父 away from his birth father.
-天呐... -你别动 - Oh, my God... - Stop!
兰德尔... Randall...
我会照顾好我们的儿子的 I will take care of our son.
如果你是来卖圣经的 我已经有好几本了 Look, if it's bibles you're selling, I've got several.
威廉·希尔 William Hill?
我不喜欢我不知道名字的人 I don't love it when people know my name
知道我的名字 and I'm not familiar with theirs.
我是兰德尔·皮尔森 I'm Randall Pearson.
十七年前 我被遗弃在伯特利公园的 17 years ago, I was left at a fire station
一个消防站 in Bethel Park.
我是你儿子 I'm your son.
不可能 That's impossible.
我妈妈说 我被遗弃的那天 My mom says she saw you at the hospital
她看到你在医院... the day that I was...
我说了不可能 I said that's impossible!
我从来都没有孩子 I've never had children.
我也没有儿子 And I don't got a son.
希尔先生 Mr. Hill!
听我说 Hey, listen to me.
那个人可能不知道自己有个儿子 That man may not know he has a son,
但你确实有个父亲 but you have a father.
你听到了吗 You hear me?
霍华德大学有暑期班 Howard has summer classes.
我可能要提前返校 I think I might go early.
好的 Okay.
我们关心整个团体 That's why we take care
是因为家庭就是一切 of our community, 'cause family is everything.
勇攀高峰
现在我兄弟昆顿会带领我们 Now my brother Quinton here's gonna lead us
开始一段征途 by "Setting owt" a march.
让我们为兰德尔兄弟鼓掌吧 Let's clap it up for Brother Randall
他带领着一个伟大的团队 for leading a great group
也是个好榜样 and being a great example.
兄弟会的座右铭是什么 What's the motto of this group?
勇攀高峰 Lifting as we climb!
-我们前进 -我们前进 - We lift! - We lift!
-我们攀登 -我们攀登 - We climb! - We climb!
伟大的队伍 Que team!
伟大的Φ Ψ Que Psi Phi!
这是第一次 It is the first time we have all the kids
孩子们都从大学回家了 home from college at the same time.
真好 是吧 杰克 It's nice, isn't it, Jack?
是啊 Yeah.
丽贝卡 这个童子鸡很好吃 Uh, Rebecca, this Cornish hen is delicious.
谢谢你 索菲 Oh, thank you, Sophie.
-是的 妈妈 美味多汁 -谢谢你 - Yeah, Mom, really juicy. - Thank you.
我帮忙了的 Hey, I helped.
大家要不也给我美言几句 How about throwing some compliments my way, guys?
好吧 凯文 Oh, okay, Kevin.
你是下一个铁人料理大师 You're-you're the next Iron Chef.
爸爸 我得我应该从朗迪建材厂辞职 Dad, think I should quit Lundy and, uh,
然后去上烹饪学校 go to culinary school?
你就做了一顿好吃的鸡 You make one decent piece of chicken,
就想抛弃你一起工作的老爸吗 and you want to abandon your old man on the job?
兰德尔 学校里怎么样 So, Randall, how's school?
挺好 It's fine.
就... 就挺好吗 Just... just fine?
我记得你上幼儿园的第一天 I can remember your first day of kindergarten.
你一下就冲出门 You burst through those front doors,
都等不及上车 you couldn't wait to get to the car
就要告诉我你一天的见闻 and tell me everything about your day,
现在你都一整学期没回了 and now you've been gone for a whole semester,
就告诉我"挺好" and all I get is a "Fine"?
小贝 别说了 Bec, please.
我要走了 我搭大巴回华盛顿 I'm gonna go. I'm gonna catch a bus back to D.C.
-什么 -等等 现在吗 兰德尔 - What? - Wait, now, Randall?
等等 等等... Hey, wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait...
爸爸 别说了 我以为我能做到 Dad, no. I thought I could do it.
我以为过了这么久 I thought enough time had passed
我能回来了 and I'd be able to come back
一切会回归正常 但并非如此 and things would be normal, but they're not.
再也不会回到从前了 And they're never going to be.
-对不起 -兰德尔 别走啊 老弟 - I'm sorry. - Randall, don't leave, man.
兰德尔 拜托留下来吧 Randall, please stay.
我儿子 才11岁 And my son, just 11 years old,
他就横穿全城 he walks clear across town
就为了找到他最爱的女孩 just so he can get his favorite girl
最喜欢的甜甜圈 her favorite doughnuts.
就在那一刻 凯文 我知道你余生 It was in that moment, Kevin, that I knew you'd spend
都会不惜走遍千山万水 the rest of your life going the extra mile
只为了让索菲开心 just to make Sophie happy.
-我为你骄傲 孩子 -谢谢 - I'm proud of you, son. - Thank you.
各位 干杯 Hear, hear. Cheers.
你爸爸很帅啊 Your dad is kind of a hottie.
所以我才不想让你跟我一起来 Uh, see, this is why I didn't want you coming with me.
我就开个玩笑 I'm just teasing.
你藏得可真深 RP You're a lot to unpack, RP.
都两年了 我一次都没有 Two years, and I've never once
听你提到过这些人 heard you talk about these people.
我过去露个面 Hey, let me show my face real quick,
然后我们就走 好吗 then we can get out of here, all right?
多谢您到场 Thank you very much for coming.
小凯 Hey, Kev.
新婚快乐 兄弟 Congrats, man.
-谢谢 谢谢 -我真为你感到高兴 - Oh, thank you. Thanks. - Really happy for you.
-我也很高兴你来了 -是啊 兄弟 - Happy you came. - Yeah, man.
听爸说三个小家伙公司上个季度业绩爆表啊 Um, Dad told me Big Three had a killer quarter.
-很厉害 -对对 的确是 - That's great. - Yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, we did.
我们拿到了市里两套房子的项目委托 We got the city to commission two houses.
-是吗 -对 我们一直做得还不错 - Okay. - And, uh, yeah, we've been doing great.
我最近正在劝老爸退休呢 I'm trying to convince the old man to retire.
-祝你好运咯 -他估计临走前还攥着锤子呢 - Good luck with that. - Probably die with a hammer in his hands.
我一直都这么说 That's what I always say.
没错 Yeah.
我看到报道说你获得了布鲁内尔大学的 Oh, hey, I read in the paper you got the Brunel,
教学奖 太了不起了 兄弟 uh, teaching award. That-That's-that's huge, man.
-多谢夸奖 兄弟 -没事 - Thank you very much, man. - Yeah.
现在工作还不错 No, work's been good.
我的学生也都挺好的 My students have been good.
学生挺好的 看得出来啊 Students are g-- I can see that.
她是我的助教 兄弟 我跟她就是玩玩 Uh, she's my T.A., man, it's nothing serious.
你跟谁都是玩玩 是吧 兄弟 Well, it's never serious with you, brother, is it?
看看谁来了 Look at this.
-你什么时候来的 -我刚到一会 - When did you sneak in? - Yeah, oh, just a sec ago.
-是吗 -你好啊 小美女 - Yeah? - And hi to this little lady.
-打个招呼 -长大了不少 对吧 - Say hi. - Not so little anymore, huh?
对啊 你想去找爸爸吗 No. You want to go see Daddy?
来 你去找爸爸吧 Here, you go see Daddy.
看来是想去啊 That's a yes.
-一会儿见 -去找爸爸吧 - See you later. - Go see Daddy.
兄弟 时光飞逝啊 Oh, man. Time flies.
谁说不是呢 对了 小凯告诉你了吗 I know. Oh, wait, did Kev tell you?
-告诉我什么 -独立日那天去木屋聚会的事 - Tell me what? - About going to the cabin for Fourth of July?
我们打算办个盛大的聚会 We're gonna have a big blowout.
伊森会帮忙照看孩子 所以 Ethan said he'd watch the girls, so, you know,
我建议办个三个小家伙的家族聚会 I thought we'd have a Big Three soiree?
听着还不错 不过我要看下行程和... No, that sounds great. Um, but with schedules and...
我不确定 让我考虑下好吗 I don't know, let me think about it, yeah?
好吧 All right.
-好 -你就让他再考虑考虑吧 - Okay. - Just let him think about it.
-小凯... -我说再考虑下有什么问题吗 - Kev... - What's wrong with saying I'll think about it?
没什么 只是你向来如此 Nothing. Nothing. You do it all the time.
你每次都说考虑下 然后从来不出现 You think about it and then you never show up.
我很好奇 I'm-I'm curious,
你今天又何必赏脸过来呢 like, why did you even bother coming today?
是爸让我来的 'Cause Dad asked me to. Yeah.
爸让你来的啊 那可真是太荣幸了 Uh, Dad asked you to? Oh, well, glad you came.
-承蒙您大驾光临啊 -两位 - Thank you for gracing us with your presence. - Guys.
-谢谢你 兰德尔 真是蓬荜生辉 -你们俩 - Thanks, Randall. It's been wonderful. - Guys.
-我并没有说... -儿子们 - I'm not talking about... - Hey, boys?
我不知道你们在吵什么 Whatever you're talking about can probably wait
能等客人走了再继续吗 until our guests leave.
好 Yeah.
兰德尔 Hi, Randall.
-妈 -好久不见 - Hey, Mom. - Hi.
刚好我也要走了 You know, I was just about to leave, anyway.
我明天早上还有课 所以... I got a lecture in the morning, so...
好吧 Right.
兰德尔·皮尔森收
皮尔森先生 威廉·希尔因为胃癌去世了 他让我把这些转交给你 祝好 劳埃德
荣誉毕业生及典礼致辞者公布 皮尔森获得霍华德大学交换奖
给儿子的诗
课程计划表我给你放床头柜了 So, lesson plans are on your nightstand.
秋季学期的成绩我也上传好了 And I've uploaded the fall semester grades.
你最能干了 You're the best.
爸 Hey, Dad.
儿子 你现在方便讲话吗 Hey, son. Catch you at a bad time?
方便 我刚跑步回来 No. Just got in from a run.
我上午没课 怎么了 I don't have a lecture till noon. What's up?
下周就是感恩节了 Well... Thanksgiving is next week.
我希望到时候你能回来 I was hoping you'd come home.
-爸 -你离我们太远了 - Dad. - You're just-- y-you're so far away.
感恩节你应该和家人团聚的 You should be with your family for the holiday.
兰德尔 Randall,
那件事已经过去很久了 it's been a long time.
你总有一天要原谅她的 儿子 You're gonna have to forgive her at some point, son.
她身体不是很好 兰德尔 She's not well, Randall.
身体不是很好 什么意思 Not well? What do you mean?
几个月前 A few months ago,
我开始注意到一些迹象 主要是小细节 I started to notice things-- just little things.
她经常忘了自己把钥匙或手机放哪了 She'd forget where she put her keys or her phone.
甚至我们刚看完一部电影 She couldn't remember the name of a movie
她就想不起来电影名字了 that we had just seen...
够了 I'm done.
我不想再做这个了 I don't want to do this anymore.
我们这到底是在做什么呢 I mean, what exactly are we doing here?
这个练习到底有什么意义 What is the point of this exercise?
我需要你意识到 就算你父亲活了下来 I need you to acknowledge that even if your father had lived,
你之后生活的每个瞬间 that every moment in your life after that
依然有着千万种可能性 could have gone a million different ways.
-这点我知道 -你并不能掌控 - I'm aware of that. - You're aware that you don't
你生活中每件事的结局 这个你也知道吗 control the outcomes of every situation in your life?
知道 Yes.
在你的幻想里 你是那个 In your fantasy, you were the one
阻止了你父亲回去救狗的人 who stopped your father from going back in the house.
你怎么就能确定自己一定能拦住他 Why are you so sure you could've stopped him?
爸爸 要是你回到了房子里 我对天发誓 Dad, if you go back in that house, so help me, God,
我一定会冲进大门 亲自救你出来 I'll go through that front door and get you myself!
好好待着 我马上回来 Just stay there, I'll be right back!
杰克 杰克 Jack! Jack!
可是他并非死于火灾 But it wasn't the fire that killed him.
而是心脏病发作 It was his heart.
我本来可以陪他一起去医院的 I could've gone to the hospital with him.
我应该陪他去的 I should've been there.
我出去找下有没有付费电话 联系下凯特 I'm gonna try and go find a pay phone and call Kate,
-看他们找到凯文了没有 -好 - see if they've found Kevin. - Okay.
好 Okay.
丹佛野马队居然赢了... I can't believe the Broncos won the...
爸 你... Dad? You...
不对劲 Something's wrong.
我身体不大对 Something's not right.
你说他当时是急性心脏病发作 对吧 You said he had a widowmaker heart attack, right?
没错 That's right.
那即使你在场 So, even if you were there,
你也未必能救他 you might not have been able to save him.
除非你打算说 你当时十七岁 Unless you're gonna tell me that, as a 17-year-old,
就受过紧急心脏复苏的训练了 you were trained in emergency cardiac resuscitation.
我说不好 但我总能做些什么 I don't know, damn it, but I could've done something.
这是我的专长 我擅长补救 That's what I do. I fix things.
-这事你补救不了 -是 可这样的话过去二十年里 - You couldn't fix this. - Yeah, well at least I could've spent
我至少能告诉自己我尽力了 the last 20 years knowing that I tried.
所以 So,
所以你觉得 如果你知道 so you think that would've made a difference
自己尽力救过他了 in how you processed his death,
你对他的去世会更容易接受吗 knowing that you tried to save him?
是 Yes!
你为什么这么想 Why do you think that?
因为我对威廉尽力了 Because I tried with William.
当我知道继续治疗对他来说 And when it became clear to me that it was hurting
坏处大于益处时 我甘心让他选择放弃 more than it was helping, I was okay letting him choose to stop.
因为我们都尽力了 Because we had tried.
好吧 Okay.
怎么 What?
没怎么 我说好吧 Nothing, I said okay.
你觉得两者不一样是吗 No, you don't think it's the same, right?
你觉得不一样 因为我从出生起 But you don't think it's the same because I knew my dad
就认识我爸 但我认识威廉还不到一年 my whole life and I knew William for less than a year,
所以关系不一样 so the bond was different.
我对他的死显然更容易释怀 Obviously it was easier for me to make peace with his death?
你是这么觉得吗 Is that what you think?
我觉得我失去了两位父亲 I-I think I lost two fathers.
我还觉得 如果能按我的方式来 And I think if I'd had it my way,
我一定不会失去他们中的任何一个 obviously I wouldn't have lost either one of them.
所以你第一个问题的回答是 没错 So to answer your first question, yes,
我很清楚我只是宇宙巨大的棋盘中 I'm fully aware that I'm just a-a cute little pawn
一颗微不足道的小棋子 on the universe's big giant chess board.
我不需要一个 I don't need an exercise
开着天价还穿便宜鞋的咨询师让我做练习 from some overpriced therapist in cheap shoes
来证明给我看 to prove it to me.
我这话不合适 That was uncalled for.
对不起 Sorry.
没什么 我就是靠这个吃饭的 Oh, please, I live for this stuff.
兰德尔 很有趣 It's interesting, Randall,
你把这个过程看作是 how you see this entirely as an exercise
一个关于失去父亲的练习 about losing your father.
父亲们 两位父亲 Your fathers. Plural fathers.
我没听懂 I don't follow.
其实 这次练习的开始 Actually, this whole exercise began
起因是你和你哥哥 because of a disagreement
对于母亲如何治疗意见相左 that you had with your brother over your mother's care.
仔细想来 If you think about it,
你的生活其实是被你的母亲们决定的 不是吗 your life has really been defined by your mothers, hasn't it?
一位母亲生下你就去世了 The mother you lost at birth,
在你的故事中只有寥寥数笔 who is barely a footnote in your story,
另一位母亲骗了你三十六年 and the mother who lied to you for 36 years.
行了 听我说 All right, look.
关于我的亲生母亲 William told me everything
威廉把他知道的一切都告诉我了 he knew about my birth mother.
他们的爱情曾有过一时美好 It was a romance that was sweet for a time,
但好景不长 还被毒品冲昏了头脑 but it was short-lived and drug-addled.
我已经无法了解她更多 I'll never know much about her,
我很久以前就接受这件事了 I've accepted that long ago.
至于我妈妈丽贝卡 As for my mother Rebecca...
是 她骗了我 ...yeah, she lied to me.
但我原谅她了 But I forgave her for that.
我们把这事翻篇了 我也接受了 And we've moved on. I've accepted that, too.
是吗 Have you?
当然了 Absolutely.
这事已经过去了 It's behind us.
可是... It's...
可是很奇怪 It's curious, though,
关于你父亲活下来之后你的生活会如何演变 that in both your scenarios of how your life
你刚才所做的两个设想中 would've played out if your father had lived...
你救了他之后发生的第一件事 the first thing that happens after you save him,
第一件事 the first thing,
就是你母亲坦白关于威廉的实情 is your mother tells the truth about William.
你觉得你现在为什么会在我的办公室里 Why do you think you're here in my office right now?
我懂 我懂 I know, I know,
因为每个来接受心理咨询的人 because everybody who comes to therapy
都深藏着关于母亲的心结是吗 has these deep-seated mommy issues, right?
我没说来做咨询 我说我的办公室 I didn't say therapy. I said my office.
我的办公室 My office.
你觉得在所有 Do you know how many black men
能随意挑选咨询师的黑人里 有几个会选我 who can choose whatever therapist they want choose me?
这个概率非常低 It's a very low number.
别人都极力推荐你 You were highly recommended.
我和你母亲是同一性别 Your mother and I are the same gender,
我们都是白种人 we're the same race,
我应该和你父亲去世时的她差不多大 I'm probably around the same age she was when your father died.
别的心理咨询师 Another therapist--
一位正直的 不像我这样狮子大开口的 a good one, not an overpriced hack like me--
可能会说 你想找一位像你母亲的人 might say you're looking for someone like your mother
来帮你应对她 to help you process her.
她的决定 What she's done.
她的病 Her illness.
我不是神经科医生 兰德尔 I'm not a neurologist, Randall,
你母亲的病情我不了解 and I don't know your mother's condition.
但我很确定你没有那么多时间 But I'm pretty sure you don't have all the time in the world
来舔舐她给你造成的伤口 to heal from the wounds that you have from her.
所以 你想说什么 So, what are you saying?
你到底想给我什么建议 What is the exact advice that you're giving me?
我是个心理咨询师 I'm a therapist.
我不给别人建议 I don't give advice.
我只会给出观察结果并提出问题 I offer observations and I pose questions.
观察结果 Observation.
即使在最糟糕的版本里 Even in the worst version of your life,
你都会保护你母亲 you still protect your mother,
你最后都会弥补她 you still redeem her in the end.
下面是提问 Question.
你到底有没有 就她对你做的事 Have you ever really confronted your mother
跟她真正交谈过 about what she did to you?
谈谈她瞒你的事情 About what she kept from you?
看了六集 终于看明白了 It took six episodes, but it finally makes sense.
-亲爱的 -怎么了 - And, baby... - Huh?
我可能要为叶海亚弃你而去了 I might be leaving you for Yahya.
叶海亚·阿卜杜勒-迈丁 《守望者》主演
不是说好一起刷《守望者》的吗 I thought we was gonna binge Watchmen together.
你还好吗 You okay?
你好像累坏了 You look exhausted.
我发现对于妈阻止我和威廉相见这件事 Turns out I'm still holding on to some residual resentments
我还是多少有些怨恨她的 about my mom keeping William from me.
见鬼 这事我也可以告诉你啊 Well, hell, I could've told you that.
我们给了这个心理咨询师多少钱 How much we paying this lady?
怎么突然吻我 What was that for?
我真为你感到骄傲 I am very proud of you.
-好的 -好的 - Okay. - Okay.
-来吧 -我开始了 - All right. - Here we go.
正方形的一半 Half of a square?
你得多给我点信息 这两条线什么都猜不出 I'm gonna need more than that. That's-- that's nothing.
这是... 这是火车轨道... 是... It's, uh... it's the train tracks from, it's...
兰德尔来电
-你真是... -那到底是什么 - How do you...? - What is it?!
这是《火星任务》 《火星...火星任务》 It's Mission to Mars. Mission... Mission to Mars.
不是吧 这算什么《火星任务》 Of course, obviously, yeah, it's Mission to Mars.
-看起来像11 -没有任务 也没有火星 - It looks like an 11. - There's no mission, there's no Mars.
轮到我了 但你先替我一下 因为我电话响了 My turn, but you're gonna go for me, because my phone's ringing.
-好吗 别让我失望 -好的 - Okay? Do me proud. - Okay.
我画的绝对比托比画的 I will definitely do better
印象主义宇宙飞船要好得多 than Toby's impressionistic spaceship.
很明显呀 这就是 Clearly, it's a r--
这就是一艘火箭宇宙飞船即将升空... it's a rocket ship going up into...
我上节目的话大家肯定秒懂 我才不管... You know what? I would kill it on Fallon, I don't care what...
喂 宝贝 Hi, sweetheart.
喂 妈妈 Hey, Mom.
你那边挺晚的了吧 Wow, it's late out there.
贝丝和孩子们都还好吗 Is everything okay with Beth and the girls?
当然 她们都很好 Yeah, yeah, they're fine.
都睡着了 Asleep.
我打电话来只是想跟你说说话 Was just calling to talk.
自从纽约之后 我们都没怎么说过话 Haven't really done that since New York.
是啊 Yeah.
还真是 你还好吗 I know. How are you?
我很好 I'm good.
我这段时间 仔细考虑了你的决定 I just, uh, have been thinking a lot about your decision.
兰德尔 别这样 宝贝 Oh, Randall, come on, sweetheart,
这事咱们不是谈妥了吗 I thought we had put that to bed.
我告诉过你了 I told you,
我完全不想离开家人 I have no interest in being away from the family.
好吗 我尊重你对这件事这么热心 Okay? I-I respect the fact that you're passionate about it,
但我真的不想再聊 but I really don't want to talk
有关临床试验疗程的事了 about the clinical trial anymore.
利医生 Dr. Leigh,
你说的话都非常有道理 everything you've said makes sense.
我可能心里早就知道这些了 And I've probably known about it all for a while
但我还是一直不能... but haven't been able to...
正视它 find it.
我很感谢你今天对我的帮助 I'm grateful to you for your help today.
妈 Mom,
我一直都是个好儿子 I've been a good son.
虽然我从没这样说过 And I never say stuff like that,
但我知道我一直都是个好儿子 but I know that I have been.
爸去世之后 After Dad died,
我留在家里 I stayed at home.
我照顾了你 I took care of you.
我一直都是个好儿子 I have been a good son.
我知道你是 I know you have.
你 你一向都很好 You've-you've always been.
很多事我也已经放下了 妈 And I've let things go, Mom.
那些... Things...
你瞒着我的事情 that were kept from me.
那些我本应该怨恨你 Things that I should have resented you for,
但我从没恨过你的事 but I never did,
因为我知道那样的话 你会很痛苦 because I knew that it would be painful for you.
所以我没有怨过你 So I didn't.
我知道 I know.
我失去了我的父亲 I lost my father,
当时我无力阻止 and I couldn't stop it.
后来我又失去了一位父亲 I lost a second father,
我也同样无法治好他 and I couldn't fix that either.
现在我妈妈病了 And now my mother is sick,
而我有治疗的方法 and there are options.
我从没向你要求过任何事 妈 I have never asked you for anything, Mom.
我这一生都没有过 Not in my entire life.
我从没向你要求过任何事 I've never asked you for anything.
但我现在想求你一件事 But I'm gonna ask you for something now.
妈 你必须参加这项临床试验 Mom, you have to do this clinical trial.
我知道你不想去 And I know you don't want to,
但你必须去 but you have to.
因为我不希望在二十年后 'Cause I don't want to be in a therapy session
我又要去做心理咨询 又要开始假想 20 years from now, playing out scenarios,
后悔当初没有再强硬一些 wishing that I had pushed harder,
后悔当初没有多争取一下 wishing that I had done more,
因为如果我那么做了 你可能还活着 'cause, maybe if I had, you would still be alive.
我没办法接受这种情况 哪怕你可以 I can't live with that, even if you can.
我会继续接受心理咨询 找到解决的办法 I will come to therapy to work this through.
我不会一个人独自承担 I won't take it on alone.
但我也不会... But I will not...
再埋怨我妈在威廉这件事上所做的一切 relitigate what my mother did to me with William.
我不想再撕开她的伤口 I won't reopen that wound for her.
我知道你觉得 宣泄和倾诉这一切 I understand you think that hashing it out
能够让我重新找回某种平静 will bring me some kind of peace.
也许你说得对 我... Maybe you're right. I...
我也不知道 I don't know.
可我已经失去三位家长了 But I've already lost three parents.
我知道再失去妈妈的话 我会崩溃的 I know that losing my mother would break me.
我绝不能失去她 I can't lose her.
我愿意做任何事来让她活下去 I will do anything to keep that from happening.
无论付出什么代价 I'll do whatever it takes.
我一直是个好儿子 妈 I've been a good son, Mom.
我一直都是个好儿子 I've been a good son,
我从没有向你要求过任何事情 and I've never asked you for anything.
但是我现在只求你做这件事 But I am asking you for this now.
我需要你告诉我 And I need you to say it.
你会去圣路易斯 You are going to St. Louis.
你会接受这项临床试验疗程 You are going to do this clinical trial.
好吧 Okay.
我会去圣路易斯 我会接受疗程 I will go to St. Louis, and I will do the trial.