根据真实事件改编
蒙大拿州 林肯县
-弗雷德 -你好 - Hey, Fred. - Hey, how are you?
泰德 Hey, Ted.
图书馆
特雷莎 Hey, Theresa.
天哪 泰德 Oh, my gosh. Ted.
很高兴你来了 I am so glad you're here.
你今天能帮我点忙吗 You know, would you mind helping me a tiny bit today?
真是太麻烦了 It's going to be so crazy.
-艾伦 -早上好 - Hey, Alan! - Good morning.
真棒 你又多带了些来 Oh, great. You brought the extras.
你能帮我拿一下吗 Could you just pick these up?
有什么大新闻吗 What's the big event?
《华盛顿邮报》 校航袭击者宣言发表
我都读完了 我等不及 I read the whole thing. I couldn't wait.
我今早在联调局网站上读的 I read it this morning on the FBI's Internet web page.
《工业社会及其未来》
他显然接受过良好的教育 He's obviously very well-educated,
非常聪明 very intelligent man.
我觉得他说的很多东西都很有道理 A lot of what he says makes sense to me.
历史规律
自由的本质
支持连环炸弹袭击者了吗 Sympathizing with a serial bomber, now?
可得小心了 Be careful.
联调局可能会找上门来问问题 The FBI might come by asking questions.
我们不得不加购 We had to order a ton of extra copies.
掌控人类行为
都排着队要看呢 There's actually a wait list for it.
-看什么 -宣言 - For what? - For the manifesto.
必须登记 You have to sign up.
《时报》上对此有所解释 Well, they explained it in the Times.
我想他是选择了具有代表性的目标 I guess he was choosing representational targets.
就像他讨论到的所有话题 So, like, all the stuff he talks about,
环境 电脑 克隆 所有这些 the environment, computers, cloning, all that --
他向那些能够代表他所对抗之物的人 He was sending bombs to people who represented
邮寄炸弹 what he was fighting against.
罗伯特·赖特说 "我们大多数人心中 Robert Wright, "There's a little bit of the Unabomber
都些许有校航袭击者的影子 我们可能 in most of us. We may not share his approach
不赞成他表达不满的方式 但对不满的内容 to airing a grievance, but the grievance itself
却能感同身受" feels familiar."
看 罗伯特在《时报》上的评论 And then, here, look. Robert sale in the Times.
"宣言的第一句话对于美国公众来说 "The manifesto's first sentence is absolutely crucial
至关重要 for the American public to understand
并且应该是国家政治议程上的 and ought to be on the forefront
头等大事" of the nation's political agenda."
我忘了第一句话是什么了 但是 I forgot what the first sentence was, but --
工业革命及其结果 The industrial revolution and its consequences
对人类来说是一场灾难 have been a disaster for the human race.
是吧 你表现得好像我疯了 See? You act like I'm crazy,
但其实挺有道理的 不是吗 but it's kind of true, right?
如果是要买《华盛顿邮报》 If you're here for the Washington Post,
得先登记 有你的名字吗 you have to be on the list. Did you sign up?
没 还没 No, not yet.
"亲爱的大卫 "Dear David,
我先声明 I'll begin by saying
这封信并不是要道歉 this letter is not to be construed as an apology,
我对琳达的感觉没有改变 and my feelings about Linda have not changed.
但是 我发现自己 However, I find myself
站在了生命的一个诡异十字路口 at a strange crossroads in my life,
我需要弟弟的建议 and I'm in need of some fraternal advice.
有一项几乎占据了我整个成年生活的 A certain activity which has been very time-consuming
非常耗时的活动 for nearly the entirety of my adult life
屠杀背后的含义
现在似乎变得 now seems to have become
不再必要 no longer necessary.
拆开牛皮纸外包装 引爆炸弹
抱歉我无法透露更多" Forgive me if I say no more than that."
带一号电池的管状炸弹
泰德 Hey, Ted.
"大卫 你知道我这些年来 "David, you know I've always had trouble
一直很难与他人产生羁绊 connecting with people.
我就是不知道他们的感受 I just can't tell what they're feeling,
他们到底在想什么" what they're really thinking about."
过来抱抱 今天在学校怎么样 Come here. How was school?
你告诉诺布尔小姐周六的事情了吗 Oh, did you talk to Miss Noble about Saturday?
告诉了 她说没关系 Yeah, I did. She said it was fine.
"我感觉自己一生都在窗户的另一边 "My whole life, I've felt like I'm watching the world
观察这个世界 from the other side of a window,
我不知道怎样才能穿过窗户来到另一边 and I just don't know how to pass through to the other side,
在那里一切都很容易" where everything is effortless."
"大卫 我想知道 "David, I need to know.
怎样才能知道改变是否为时已晚 How do you know if it's too late to change?
怎样才能知道是否还有 How can you tell if it's still possible
重新开始的可能性" to begin again?"
伊利诺伊州 埃弗格林公园区
我从小就注定是个怪胎 I was doomed to be a freak from the start.
我仍然将这事归咎于爸爸妈妈 I still blame mom and dad for that,
让我跳了两级 skipping me two grades ahead.
我并没有准备好 I wasn't ready.
但最糟糕的是 But the worst part was
我还是比同班的人聪明 I was still smarter than everyone else.
我从未告诉过你道格的事情 I never told you about Doug,
但我觉得他是这一切的开始 but I think that's where this all began.
我知道他是这一切的开始 I know that's where this all began,
因为他是我的第一个 because that was my first one,
我最早的试验 my very first experiment.
《史前人类》
即使四十年过去了 还是可以说 Even 40 years later, I guess you can say
道格是我这辈子唯一一位真正的朋友 that doug was the only real friend I ever had.
八 七 六 五 Eight, seven, six, five,
四 三 二 一 four, three, two, one!
起飞 Lift off!
抓住他 Get him!
把他赶走 Get him out of here!
快滚 Get out of here!
滚 滚 Leave! Leave!
砸他的眼睛 Throw it in his eye!
快滚 Get out of here!
蒂米 Hey, Timmy.
泰德 Hey, Ted.
今天数学课上学了什么 What'd you learn in math today?
见鬼 奇普曼小姐教得太烂了 Dang. Miss Chipman sucks,
那些二次方程看得我头疼 and these quadratics are just giving me a headache,
她甚至解释不了二次方程在哪能用得上 and she can't even explain why we'd ever use one.
解释不了 She can't?
嗯 No.
但二次方程到处都是 But they're everywhere.
你扔球的时候 Wh-when you throw a ball,
开枪的时候 这都是二次方程 when you shoot a gun, that's quadratics.
大卫 我一直自问 David, I keep asking
我是怎样从一个天真的孩子变成现在这样的 how'd I go from this innocent little kid to this?
我觉得是哈佛把我变成这样的 I think it was Harvard that did it.
这件事我也没告诉过你 You don't know about that, either,
关于默里 about Murray,
关于所有事 about everything.
爸妈很喜欢这种 Mom and dad, they loved that,
"我儿子上哈佛了" "My son attending harvard."
你能想象那有多孤独吗 Can you imagine how lonely that was,
十六岁就上了大学 to be in college at 16?
麻省 剑桥
真理
所有这些问题 这些证据 All these questions, all of the evidences,
-给学生 -谢谢 - to the students. - Thank you.
亨利·默里教授 我的人生目标 Professor Henry Murray, he was everything I wanted to be,
哈佛里希腊天神一样的人物 a beaming Greek God of Harvardness.
尽快高效地弄出来 Get these out as quickly and as efficiently as possible.
相信你们 I have full confidence in you.
我们刚一进教室 As soon as we entered the room,
就迫不及待想崭露头角 we were all desperate to make the cut,
想让他选中 for him to select us,
带我们走进内圈 to bring us into the inner circle of the fold.
他就是上帝之手 His was a hand of god,
从鱼目中筛选出珍珠 separating sheep from goats.
常对我爱的人有仇恨之感
真正理解我
完全符合
先生们 我叫到的号码 Gentleman, if I call your number,
请起立 暂时不要坐下 please stand and remain standing.
1号 Number 1,
5号 5,
21 24 21, 24,
47和89 47, and 89.
所有站着的人 If you are standing,
谢谢你们的参与 thank you for your participation today.
你们可以走了 You may leave now.
在我说开始前 请将考卷 Please keep your papers face-down
保持正面朝下放置 until I say begin.
开始 Begin.
4号 Number 4,
7 7,
不符合
8 8,
15 15,
23 23,
37 37,
42 42,
非理智的仇恨
61 61,
80 80,
完全符合
91和96 91, 96.
恭喜 Congratulations.
在场的各位都入选 If you're still here, you've made the cut.
单人会话下周开始 Individual sessions will start next week.
我生命中 Nobody in my life ever asked me
从来没人问过我好不好 how I was doing or if I was okay
甚至都没人问过我时间 or even if I knew what time it was.
西奥多 谢谢你前来 Theodore, thank you for coming by.
现在居然有位哈佛教授 And here was this Harvard professor asking me
问我对世界的看法 并认真倾听 what I thought about the world, listening.
您的办公室真好 It's a wonderful office you have.
在我说话时甚至记笔记 想象一下 Taking notes, even, when I spoke. Imagine that.
简直就像耶稣亲临 It was as if christ himself came down
询问我的境况 and asked me about my life.
我们那么努力想要证明 Well, we work so hard to justify emotional responses
对道德的感性反应之正当性 with morality that the --
但道德规范却越发稀薄 几近于无意义 the moral code becomes so attenuated as to be meaningless.
你认为这一趋势是必然的吗 And do you think that that's an inevitability?
我认为每个人都该清楚... I think it has to be specific to each individual...
一年来几乎都是如此 It was almost a year of that.
每周在附楼的时光 我就如身在天堂 Those weekly trips to the annex were like heaven to me.
科学自以为对宇宙万物 I mean, science thinks it has this perfect,
都有完美的实证证据 empirical evidence of everything in the universe,
但它没办法给出关于人的半点信息 but it actually can't tell us anything about people.
两只卷毛狗在对望 Two poodles looking at each other.
你有没有想过 Don't you think there's a sense
自由只是我们的一个叫法 in which freedom is only what we call it?
所谓监狱也只是叫作监狱 不叫隐修院 Call it prison and not, say, a monastery.
隐修院和监狱之所以不同 What makes a monastery different from a prison
是因为僧侣可以想走就走 is that the monks can leave if they wanted to.
他们有自主权 They have self-determination.
...科学 我们看到这篇关于老鼠应激反应的论文 ...science, we read this article about stress effects in mice.
把两只老鼠放进一个笼子 You put two mice in a cage,
它们能和平相处 快乐长久地享受鼠生 and they're fine -- happy, live long lives.
而把二十只老鼠放进同一个笼子里 You put 20 mice in the same cage,
它们心理上会陷入混乱 it messes them up psychologically.
总的来说 我认为技术社会 I basically feel that technological society
和个体自由格格不入 is incompatible with individual freedom.
所以 我们必须毁灭它 And, therefore, we have to destroy it
代之以一种更原始的社会 and replace it with a more primitive society
如此人们才能重获自由 so that people can be free again.
我们无话不谈 Nothing was off-limits between us.
我们什么都聊 聊我生命的每一处缺口 We talked about everything, every crevice of my life,
我的梦想 我的恐惧 my dreams, my fears.
我自学的象棋 I'm self-taught, you know.
我父亲根本不懂怎么下象棋 My father couldn't comprehend chess.
他欣赏真实的我 And he appreciated me for who I really was.
就我个人而言 我永远不能理解 Personally, I never understood the appeal
女人的屁股到底有什么吸引力 不是吗 of a woman's backside.--no?
《串串风铃响》
也许除了黑鬼女人 Except perhaps a negro woman.
感谢您今天的参与 法官 Thank you for joining us today, Judge.
不客气 Absolutely.
早上好 卡钦斯基先生 我们马上就来 Morning, Mr. Kaczynski. We'll be right along.
也许我也能抽一支 如果不急的话 Well, maybe I'll have one, too, if we have a minute.
巴尔干寿百年 Balkan Sobranies, huh?
好孩子 Good man.
泰德 他们是我朋友 联邦政府官员 These are some friends of mine, Ted, the federal government.
西奥多是我的一位得意被试 Theodore is one of my star subjects.
他跟我们分享了很多有趣想法 He's been sharing some very interesting ideas with us.
这边来 Let's go this way.
今天我们尝试些和以往稍不同的东西 We're trying something a little different today.
那些政府人员来这里 Those government men are here
是因为这项研究不仅仅涉及 because this study is not just about
心理科学领域的探索和拓展 expanding the boundaries of psychological sciences.
你也将为这个宏伟项目出力 泰德 You're part of something much bigger than yourself, Ted.
这对自由世界的未来十分重要 This is important for the future of the free world.
我动不了了 I can't really move.
只要你想 随时都可以走 Well, you can walk out anytime you want.
你知道的 西奥多 You know that, right, Theodore?
对 不 我--我知道了 教授 Yeah, no, I'm-- I'm okay, professor.
好孩子 Good man.
过去一年里 Over the past year,
你已提供数百页的材料 you've provided us with hundreds of pages of material
来阐述你的人生理念 laying out your philosophy of life,
以及你对未来自我 your dreams for your own future,
和对未来世界的憧憬 and the future of the world.
很高兴能够了解你 It's been wonderful getting to know you,
并深入领会你内心深处的想法 getting to see inside the deepest recesses of your mind.
我希望你面对我时是完全诚实的 I hope that you feel that you've been fully honest with me,
希望你的作品真实地表达了你这个人 that your work truly represents who you are
以及你所相信的东西 and what you believe.
当然 Of course.
我很喜欢我们之间的谈话 I've really enjoyed our conversations
还有布置的任务 and the assignments, too.
我不会对你有任何隐瞒的 I wouldn't hold anything back from you.
很好 Good.
开始吧 Let's begin.
我将这些记录 I've taken the liberty of sharing those pages
分享给了一个专家小组 with a panel of fellow scientists,
他们是哈佛大学最杰出的思想家 some of Harvard's most distinguished thinkers.
我很荣幸 I'm flattered.
-早上好 -可惜 - Good morning. - Unfortunately,
他们得出的结论一致 their conclusions were unanimous.
他们认为你的想法大部分都来自他人 They found the majority of your ideas to be derivative,
老生常谈 幼稚青涩 cliched, and juvenile.
不言而喻 他们认为剩余的部分荒诞可笑 The remainder they found self-evidently absurd.
教授 我很乐意进一步解释我的 Well, professor, I'd be happy to explain myself further --
来看一下我们上次见面的录像 Let's take a look at the film from our last session.
我会帮忙阐述他们的见解 I'll help clarify their findings.
我主要认为技术社会 I basically feel that technological society
不能容忍个体自由 is incompatible with individual freedom,
因此 我们必须毁掉它 and, therefore, we have to destroy it
用更原始的社会替代它 and replace it with a more primitive society
让人们获得自由 so that people can be free.
专家们认为这是不愠不火地 Our reviewers found this to be a tepid,
对雅克·埃吕尔的观点进行一知半解地复述 sophomoric regurgitation of Jacques Ellul.
法国社会学家
对于自治权你谈了很多 You talk so much about autonomy,
但是你所有的想法都是 but you've stolen all of your ideas
从一个三流思想家的畅销平装书上偷来的 from a third-rate thinker's mass-market paperback.
我并没有说我的想法都是 Well, I didn't claim that my ideas were --
等一下 这是最精彩的部分 Oh, wait. Here's the best part!
技术及其所创造出的社会结构 Technology and the social structures that it's created
使得个体变得被动 无力 受困于规则 have made the individual passive, powerless, trapped by rules.
妄想的自我辩护 Delusional self-justification.
"我要是生而为洞穴人 "If only I were born among cavemen,
那我就是明星了" then I would have been a star."
这不能归咎于你能力不足 It couldn't be your own inadequacy that's to blame.
这完全是人身攻击 我 Well, that's totally ad hominem. I --
这不可能只是一个平庸的数学家 It couldn't be just a mediocre mathematician
极力地为自己的错误辩解 grasping to some justification of his own failures.
不 一定是整个体系全都错了 No, it must be that the whole system is completely wrong.
当然 因为你比任何人都更敏锐 Because, of course, you're more perceptive than anybody else.
对吗 泰德 Right, Ted?
我们必须摆脱所有的非自然的东西 We have to shed all of the unnatural stuff
然后重归自然 and get back to nature.
如果社会崩溃了 像你这种 If society broke down, you wouldn't stand a chance,
吓人的劣等男性是不会有希望的 a creepy, beta-male shrimp like you!
你会被鸡奸而死 You'd be sodomized to death
十分钟后就被扔去喂狗了 and turned into dog food in 10 minutes.
没准你还挺享受的 You'd probably enjoy it.
行了 行了 我跟你们说过 Now, now. Now, now. I told you not to bring up
不要提起西奥多的施虐受虐倾向 Theodore's sadomasochistic tendencies.
这不公平 That's not fair.
人们会看着我 尊重我 People will look at me, and they'll respect me.
他们听到我的想法就会明白我是对的 They'll hear my ideas and see that I'm right,
他们就会让我成为世界的统治者 and they'll make me the ruler of the world.
我给你母亲写信 征求她同意这项研究时 When I wrote your mother to get permission for this study,
她不仅是在同意书上签了字 she didn't just sign the permission slip.
还回寄了整整一封信 She sent a whole letter back in return.
"恐怕西奥多亟需 "I'm afraid Theodore is in desperate need
心理干预 of psychological intervention.
很多人常常叫他变态" Many people regularly call him a creep."
辛格光谱分析仪
妈妈 妈妈不会说这种话的 Mom -- mom wouldn't say that.
她不会这么说我的 She wouldn't call me that.
"他有尿遗症 "He's a bed-wetter,
且手淫极度频繁 and he masturbates so excessively
我非常担心他的精神和身体状况 that I worry about his mental and physical ramifications.
他产生的病态幻想远远超过了 He harbors delusions of grandeur completely out of proportion
他精神和身体所能承受的范围 to his mental and physical capabilities.
只要能治好我儿子 无论你用什么方法 Anything you could do to fix my boy
我都同意 would have my permission.
旺达·卡钦斯基" Wanda Kaczynski."
真是他母亲写的吗 His mother really wrote that?
当然不是 我们对所有人都念同样的信 Of course not. We use the same letter for all of them.
如果用上一些个性化的措辞方式 I imagine we could get even better results
效果可能会更好 with more customized verbiage,
被试 劳福尔
但我更希望这个阶段有统一的标准 But I'd prefer to have this phase be standardized.
当代社会的人本质上已经失去了 Modern man has essentially handed over the reins
对社会发展方式的控制 of how our society develops.
我几年后才知道真相 I only found this out years later,
但记录地十分详尽 but it's well documented.
默里是洗脑项目的成员 Murray was part of MKUltra,
中情局的大脑控制试验项目 the C.I.A.'s vast mind-control project,
旨在完善洗脑技术 working to perfect brainwashing techniques
用来对付苏联间谍 to use against Soviet spies
被试 林森
从精神上打垮他们 改变他们的核心信仰 to break them permanently and change their core beliefs.
被试 麦克尔
被试 克林格
而我们就是小白鼠 And we were the guinea pigs.
他选了最软弱的来试验 看我们是否会屈服 He selected the most vulnerable to see if we could be broken.
其他的孩子至少都有18 19岁 And the other kids, they were at least 18 or 19.
我才16岁 I was 16 years old.
把电极拿下来吧 Let's get those electrodes off.
西奥多 你做得太棒了 Theodore, you did a wonderful job.
完全超乎了我的想象 You truly exceeded my expectations.
做得非常好 You did so very well.
无论是作为被试还是朋友 I couldn't have asked for more
你都远超预期 as a subject or as a friend.
我很期待你下次的表现 I can't wait to see how well you do next time.
下次 Next time?
这个阶段会持续18个月 This phase will continue for about 18 months.
我希望你能给我带来更多惊喜 泰德 I'm anticipating more great things from you, Ted.
其实我根本不相信那些东西 I never believed any of that stuff anyway, you know?
是吗 我以为你非常坚信 Is that right? I thought you believed strongly --
其实我根本不信 I never really believed any of it.
那些想法实在太 Those ideas were just --
太愚蠢了 Well, they were stupid,
很幼稚 Juvenile.
好吧 Well,
总之很棒 either way.
下周见了 I will see you next week.
泰德 Ted?
你的烟 Your cigarettes.
泰德 Ted.
泰德 泰德 Ted, hey, Ted. Uh,
我做完了 也识破了你的圈套 I'm finished and I saw where you tried to trick me.
你骗不了我 Nice try.
蒂米 你看 Oh, well, Timmy, see?
你在数学上很有天赋 Got a good head for mathematics.
这很特别 不是所有人都有的 That's special. Not everybody has that.
-我能不能问你个问题 -当然 - Actually, can I ask you a question? - Sure.
私下问 我不想问我妈 Privately? I can't really ask my mom.
特雷莎 我们能去散个步吗 Theresa? Can we go for a walk?
可以 去吧 Oh, yeah, sure.
他们每天都欺负我 They are on me every single day.
叫我小娘炮 They call me pigeon-boy,
经常拗我的手指 and they bend my fingers back.
我妈只会说"做好自己" And my mom, she just says, "Be yourself,"
但那是女人的解决方式 but that's mom stuff.
我想听一些男人之间的建议 I need man-to-man advice.
这样的人 These kinds of people,
他们恃强凌弱 只崇尚武力 they prey on fear and weakness, and they respect only strength.
你应该每天做做俯卧撑和仰卧起坐 You should be doing push-ups, sit-ups, every day.
很快他们就会感觉到你变强大了 Soon, they'll sense your strength,
就不再找你麻烦了 and they'll leave you alone.
你甚至不需要和他们打架 You won't even need to fight them.
真是个爸爸式的好主意 我今晚就开练 That's good dad advice. I'll start tonight.
如果他们敢惹我 If they try to mess with me,
我会让他们付出代价 I'll make them pay.
你大可不必反击 这才是美妙之处 Well, you won't need to. That's the beauty of it.
我想反击 我想报复他们 I want to. I want to get even.
你不需要去报复别人 蒂米 You don't need to get even, Timmy.
不要报复 You don't.
不管全世界怎么看你 What the world thinks about you,
那些恶霸怎么说你 都不重要 what those bullies say about you, none of it matters.
你与众不同 这是一件好事 You are different from those kids. That's a good thing.
你确实以不同的角度看待世界 You do see the world differently.
这是一件好事 That's a good thing,
这并不算是女人的解决方式 and that's not "mom stuff".
举世皆浊我独清 It takes incredible strength and courage
需要极大的力量和勇气 to be different from everybody else,
但这绝对是一件好事 我向你保证 but it's a good thing. I promise you.
我向你保证 I promise you.
好吧 All right.
等一下 Hold on a second.
给你 Here.
我们要办一场生日派对 We're having a party for my birthday.
你会来参加吗 Do you think you can come?
这个嘛 Oh, well.
你不必带礼物什么的 You don't need to bring a present or anything.
我们有蛋糕 We'll have a cake.
这真的 That's really --
我 我 我没法保证能来 I'm -- I'm not -- I'm not sure I can make it.
只是一个小型派对 It's just a small party.
-嗯 -我也没有很多朋友 - Yeah. - I don't have very many friends.
你不一定非要参加的 You don't have to come.
不 我想去 我只是 No, I want to come. I just --
有点忙 I'm...busy.
如果你不想来的话就不要勉强 You don't have to if you don't want to.
我争取 好吗 I'll try, okay?
好吗 Okay?
好的 Yeah.
你现在回去吧 Now, you -- you get on back now.
默里花了一年的时间引诱我 All right. Murray spent a year seducing me
又用了两年时间来击垮我 and then spent two years breaking me,
整整两年 two years.
为什么我还是要回去 Why'd I keep going back?
就是要向他们证明 To prove to them
即使他们把我绑在电椅之上 that they can strap me into an electric chair,
但休想让我屈服 but I will never give in.
他们永远不可能击垮我 They will never break me.
也从未击垮过我 And they didn't.
我从未停止抵抗 I didn't break.
被试 劳福尔
我没有被他们击垮 They did not break me.
我现在可以停下来了 I can stop now.
可以停止了 I can stop.
但每当我精神恍惚时 But every time my mind drifts,
就会回想起哈佛的那个房间 it goes back to that room at Harvard.
每当我闭上眼睛 人就到了那里 Whenever I close my eyes, I'm there,
被绑在椅子上 strapped to that chair,
我感到无助 愤怒 无能为力 helpless, angry, impotent,
所有自尊都被剥夺 stripped of all respect,
无尽的愤怒充斥着我 and I feel so much anger.
我一生都生活在愤怒之中 I've been living on anger my whole life.
所有我爱过的人 Anyone I ever loved,
我仰慕过的人 anyone I ever admired,
都背叛了我 betrayed me.
你出卖了我 You sold me out!
你让我在默里教授面前很难看 You made me look bad to professor Murray!
你为什么要写那封信 Why would you write that letter?
什么信 你叫我签同意书我就签了啊 What letter? I signed a permission slip because you asked me to.
道格 默里 Doug. Murray,
还有你也是 大卫 and you, too, David.
连你也是 Even you.
我要抓到你啦 I'm going to get you!
我要抓到你啦 Now I'm going to get you!
往回拉 Roll back.
来回几次 Couple times.
笑一个吧 How about a smile?
你最好把这些纸条撕下来 大家都 You better take these down. People are --
泰德 泰德 别这样 Ted. Ted, stop it. Come on.
别这样 泰德 Stop. Ted.
喂 Hello.
好吧 回家去吧 Hey. Hey, okay, fine. Then go home.
你被开除了 You're fired.
一而再再而三的背叛 Betrayal after betrayal after betrayal...
直到我无法信任任何人 ...till I couldn't trust anyone.
我要他们好好听我说话 I want them to listen to me.
我要他们为对我的伤害付出代价 I want them to pay for what they did to me.
那就让人们恨我吧 Well, let them hate me,
这些温顺的绵羊 The sheep.
他们就不会无视我了 They will not ignore me.
曾经我觉得自己做的这一切有意义 It all used to make sense to me once.
这一切都是合情合理的 It all used to feel justified,
但现在回想过去 but now, when I think back on it all,
我在这张桌子前花掉了多少年的时间 how many years have I spent here at this table?
每一次我都想着 Every time, I think,
这是最后一个了 之后我就会满意了 "this is the one that's finally going to make me feel good,
就会开心了 feel happy."
但从来没有 But it never does.
有时候我觉得我只是想惩罚人们 Sometimes, I think I'm just trying to punish those people
因为他们拥有我真正渴望的东西 because they have what I really want --
一个家 A home, a family,
能够正常生活的能力 the ability to be normal.
我53岁了 I am 53 years old,
还是处男 and I'm a virgin.
我现在意识到 And I realize only now
那些我花来搞破坏的时间 that the time I've spent on all this destruction
正是我本该花在家庭里的时间 is the time I would have spent on a family,
生一个儿子 having a son,
一个会仰慕我的孩子 someone who would look up to me,
一个我爱的人 who I could just...love.
我为了得到尊重舍弃了一切 I gave up everything for respect.
但我真正想要的是 But what I really want is...
我的未来不一定非要重蹈覆辙 是吗 My past doesn't have to dictate my future. Does it?
我还可以长大 I can still grow.
我还可以改变 I can still change.
不是吗 Can't I?
祝你生日快乐 Happy birthday to you.
-好棒 -我的天 - Oh, nice! - Oh, my gosh.
我的人生不该是这样的 My life wasn't supposed to go like this.
该死的 By god, damn it,
不该是这样的 It wasn't supposed to go like this.