平成13年7月10日
梦想是自由的 Everybody dreams.
涉谷 下午3点
但是 实现梦想 渡过幸福一生的人,少之又少 But only a handful of people see their dreams realized. It'll be fine as long as there is happiness.
你好,借过一下 Hello, excuse me
喂喂,你这么可爱 想不想上电视呀? Hello! You're perfect! Want to be a star?
肯定行的 It will be work!
好啦,走吧 Come on, let's go
因此,绝大部分没那么幸运的人 The rest of us…
幕张 下午3点
要么伤心的长吁短叹… accept our fate…
新宿 下午3点
要么沉醉于悲伤中… fall into ruin…
荒川 下午3点
要么草草地了结一生… kill ourselves…
荻窪 下午3点
分手吧 Let's break up.
要么笑着搪塞过去… laugh it off…
将错就错走向犯罪 turn to a life of crime.
被片平渚追得走投无路 Being chased by Nagisa Katahira
(片平渚,日本女艺人,常演警匪悬疑片)
别过来 Don't come near!
和阿笙在一起 Life with you…
觉得人生很没趣 is a terrible bore.
甚至…会想要死掉 I feel like dying.
你已经无处可逃了 You have no way out.
不论走哪条路 At any rate…
都是前途渺茫… the future's hopeless.
乐队也不干了 You quit your band.
以后要以什么为生啊? So now what?
Sex!
Sex!!
Sex!!!
现在还来得及 It's not too late!
放屁! Shut up!
重头再来过! You can start over!
悔改吧 Repentance bar!
做不到! Fuck it.
这令人怀念的声音像是在叫我 And then a familiar voice called to me.
♪ Reach out. Stretch up high ♪ 弯出手臂 直伸过去
♪ And grab a star ♪ 紧紧地搂住那颗小星星
松子 Matsuko!
被嫌弃的松子的一生
过得好吗? Hi, Son.
什么呀,突然出现 Dad!
啊,有点事 There's something wrong
唔…想托你做点事 I need a favour of you.
我怀着成为音乐家 这个再普通不过的梦想 18岁时离开了福冈县大野岛的家乡 Ever since I left home at 18 for Tokyo…to become a musician.
这是我与父亲时隔两年之后的 再次见面 This is my meeting with my father again after two years
这是什么? What's that?
骨灰 Ashes.
妈妈的? Mum?
我好像没有跟你提起过吧 我有一个大我两岁的姐姐,叫松子 I never told you I had an older sister, Matsuko.
啊? Ah?
消失了三十多年,一直都没出现过 She vanished about 30 years ago.
三天前被发现死在一个公园里 She was found dead in a park 3 days ago.
父亲匆匆跑到东京来帮这个姐姐火葬 My dad came to Tokyo to cremate her.
五十三岁 She was 53…
独自一人住在公寓里 living alone in an apartment.
父亲今天必须要赶回去 My dad had to return home that day.
所以要我替他,收拾整理那个人的房间 So he asked me to go clean up her apartment.
是个一无是处的姐姐呀 She was hopeless.
最后被杀死了 And now she's been murdered.
被杀? Murderer!?
犯人还没有抓到 The killer’s still at large.
无论怎么看都是无聊的一生 Her life was meaningless.
无聊的一生… Meaningless.
平成13年7月10日 下午4点左右 4 pm, July 10, 2001.
东京都足立区荒川河边发现中年女性的尸体 The body of a middle-aged woman was found on a riverbank.
据警察调查 According to the police…
该女性是住在附近的光之莊公寓202室 she was identified as Matsuko Kawajiri.
五十三岁的川尻松子 A tenant of a run-down apartment building.
另外,尸体被发现时 全身都是被殴打过的伤痕 She had been severely beaten…
因此警察断定为凶杀案 "Murder, Say Police"
真臭 What a mess!
什么东西呀 What is it
光GENJI是… A teen idol band?
♪ "Concrete jungle!"
真脏 Disgusting.
这是? This is her?
松子? Aunt Matsuko?
这些是四天前死掉的住在这个房间的人写的 That was scribbled by the lady who died 4 days ago.
没有规矩… She was…a nuisance.
老给邻居添麻烦 不管不顾的 A neighborhood pest.
真他妈的疯狂 Fuckin' crazy!
那个,我是这个死者的家人 Well, I'm… her relative.
这个男人叫大仓攸二 住在隔壁 Her neighbour, Shuji,
总是胡说八道,表里不一 despite his anti-social demeanor…
我把我的性格、特征都刻成纹身了 My body is my canvas.
格外喜欢套近乎 was oddly friendly.
那女人啊,是这个公寓的臭虫 That woman is the bedbug of this apartment
也有人叫她"被嫌弃的松子"呢 People called the lady here "Matsuko the Outcast."
不遵守垃圾规定 和谁都不说话 Never threw out her trash. Never said a word.
身上老有股怪味 She smelled weird.
半夜里突然叫得很大声,不断地大闹 Sometimes, she'd scream her head off.
"啊…"这样 "Ah…" like this
光GENJI是… Teen idols?
啊 Ah
对了,经常在那边的河堤上看到她 总是坐在那里,一直盯着河看 I often saw her on the riverbank, just staring at the water.
河? River?
嗯 Yes
全都是谜呀 Mystifying.
反正只有片平渚能解决了 Not for the hero detective.
哦,警察先生 Hi, Officer!
你们好 Hello
脸…真可怕! Fuckin' scary!
没见过吗 那是十八年前和被害人同居的男人 Seen him? He lived with the victim 18 years ago.
因杀人进了监狱,一个月前刚放出来 He was released from prison last month.
那,那个,这 这个家伙把老太婆她…? You think he did it?
可能是吧 有人在附近看到长得相似的男人 Don't know. But he's been spotted around here.
啊,你 Hey, you!
叫我吗? Me?
真的不知道被害人的事情吗? What do you know about her?
嗯,什么都不知道 Nothing.
除了知道她是光GENJI的歌迷以外 She liked teen idols?
无论怎么看 Her life…
都是无聊的一生 was meaningless.
"对不起"? "Forgive me…"
"生而为人 我很抱歉"? "Forgive me for being born."
什么呀,这个人 Who was she?
是个老师呢 Schoolteacher.
她原来是中学的老师 A junior high teacher.
歌唱得好,也很受欢迎 Popular, too. Beautiful voice.
♪ The moon is crying ♪ 夜空月影朦胧 ♪ 月なきみ空に
♪ A star sparkles ♪ 便显星光璀璨 ♪ きらめく光
昭和46年(1971) 松子 23岁
♪ Mottled star shadow ♪ 啊 斑驳星影 ♪ 嗚呼(ああ)その星影
♪ That's where hope lies ♪ 希望的模样 ♪ 希望のすがた
♪ Knowledge is endless. ♪ 智慧没有边界 ♪ 人智(じんち)は果(はて)なし
♪ And stars reach into endlessness. ♪ 可以无尽遨游 ♪ 無窮(むきゅう)の遠(おち)に
♪ Towards the stars ♪ 向着星野 ♪ いざ其(そ)の星影
♪ Go ahead ♪ 前行吧 ♪ きわめも行かん
但是却在修学旅行时发生了一件事 Then came an incident at a school outing.
喂,大家,回房间去 Get back to your rooms.
咦? What?
说是从小卖部的手提保险箱中偷了现金 A student stole money…from the inn's shop.
是在店员去吃晚饭的时候被偷的 It was stolen when the clerk went to dinner
偷了一万两千日元 About $ 100.
对了…那时2班的阿龙正好不在呢 Ryu was missing from dinner last night.
你们怀疑阿龙吗?! So what?
除了他之外,还有谁在晚饭时离开过吗? He was the only one missing.
你是说是阿龙偷的吗?! Don't accuse him!
我们也不想那么想,所以… We're not accusing him.
想让您去向龙洋一那里确认一下 We just want you to talk to him.
-你是班主任吧 -是 -He's your student! -Yes.
-立刻去! -是! -Do it! -Yes, Sir!
I’ll join you. 我也去吧
一个人…心里很不安吧 For moral support.
没关系的 That's okay.
他的班主任是我嘛 I'm his teacher.
我相信自己的学生 I trust my students.
我冷静的选择了言辞,不让龙洋一受伤… I selected my words carefully so as not to hurt his feelings.
阿龙,钱是你拿的吗? Did you take the money?
当然,我是相信你的 但是其他的老师不相信 I believe you but the other teachers…
所以我希望从阿龙的口中知道事实的真相 I'd like to hear it from you.
这也算是信任? You think I did it.
啊? Ah?
无论如何,店里的人说了 如果把钱还回去的话就不报警 If it's returned, the owner won't call the police.
好吧?老师也和你一起 去跟旅馆的人道歉 We'll apologise together.
管我什么事? Forget it!
糟了,怎么办… Oh no.
为什么这么 Is it me?
难道是我错了? My fault?
我说话的方式不对? I'm not speaking the right way?
不是,不对的人是阿龙 No, Ryu's to blame.
肯定是他偷的! He stole!
这个混蛋! Damn you!
那一瞬间我有了主意 Wait, I know!
如果自己马上把被偷的一万两千日元垫上 I'll return the money myself…
然后跟店里的人说 是从反省的学生那里拿回了钱 and say I got it from the remorseful student.
替他还回来的 Help him pay back the money
哎呀,钱不够 Not enough!
啊…怎么办 Ah…What should I do?
马上就还的 只是一点! I'll pay it right back! I promise!
偷钱的人已经反省了 He feels terrible about it!
那就把本人带过来呀 Then bring him here.
他本人应该来认认真真地道歉吧! He needs to apologise!
他不来的话,我去好了 Let's go see him, then.
等,等,等一下,不是这样的 Wait, wait, wait. It's not like that
那是什么 What's that?
你…在捉弄我吗? Are you making fun of me?
啊,不是,对不起 Um…no.
那个时候我… Just then…
不是学生干的 It wasn't him.
啊? Ah?
总之,我想解决这件事情 想早点去洗澡… I just wanted this over.
是我偷的! I took it!
我鬼迷心窍起了念头 I took the money!
你这人…想把责任推给学生… You were letting your students take the blame…
把自己犯的错都撇清吗?! for a crime you committed?
对不起! I'm sorry!
算了,反正我也不想给警察添麻烦 I wasn't going to the police anyway.
川尻老师? Ms. Kawajiri?
怎么做这种傻事 But why?
我会告诉其他的老师,是旅馆的人弄错了 Let's not tell the other teachers.
旅馆那边,就说是川尻老师偷的钱 We'll let the inn believe you did it.
学校那边说起来,就说没有发生过偷盗事件 就这样吧 And the school will pretend nothing happened.
只有这个办法了 We've no other choice.
话说回来,川尻老师 As for you, Ms. Kawajiri…
你这个人啊… Are you sorry?
我已经在反省了… I'm sorry.
怎么反省啊?! How sorry?
我… Well…
口头上怎么说都可以啊 要在态度上表示一下怎么反省啊 Show me with actions, not words!
是 Yes, sir!
什么? What?
真心反省的话 就让我看看你的胸部 If you're really sorry, then show me your breasts.
-好啦,快让我看 -是 -Show me! -Yes
马上! Now!
是… Yes…
川尻老师 Ms. Kawajiri?
我听说了 偷钱的事是旅馆弄错了 I heard that was all a mistake by the inn.
啊? Ah?
是吗… Yes.
真是的,虚惊了一场 People can be so silly.
哈哈哈哈… Ha ha ha ha…
川尻老师? Ms. Kawajiri?
他说他一直都在注意着我 He looked me in the eye and said…
那个,如果可以的话… How would you like…
这个星期天… to go bowling on Sunday?
我们去打保龄球如何? How about we go bowling?
我问他 Then I said…
你是在向我约会是吧? "Are you asking me out on a date?"
他一听…脸就红了 Then he blushed.
哈,是 Yes.
就这样,呀 That's it. Yeah
佐伯先生很有魅力吧? Is he handsome?
嗯!牙齿… Yes, and his teeth!
白得晃眼 Sparkling white.
真好呀,姐姐 Good for you, Sis.
谢谢你,久美 Thanks.
-姐姐一定会幸福的 -嗯 -I promise to be happy. -En
为什么要和久美说和男人约会的事 Why'd you tell your sister you have a date?
那个孩子的身体 You know she's ill.
连门都出不了 She can't go out.
更别说是恋爱什么的了 She can't date.
你有考虑过久美的心情吗 Have you considered her feelings?
难道你不觉得那个孩子很可怜吗! Have you no sympathy?
姐姐… Hi, Sis.
嗬…你啊 I don't feel…
一点都不可怜! the least bit sorry for you!
松子! Matsuko!
从孩提时起,父亲一直就是这样的 Dad had always been like this.
♪ Reach out, stretch up high ♪ 弯出手臂,直伸过去
昭和30年(1955) 松子 7岁
♪ And grab a star. ♪ 紧紧地搂住那颗小星星
♪ Stretch up high as you can…" ♪ 弯出手臂,掂起脚尖
♪ We can get the blue sky ♪ 我们够得到蓝色天空…
父亲只怜爱病弱的久美 He adored my sick sister, Kumi.
而我总是一个人 I was always alone.
♪ Knead into a small ball and talk to the wind ♪ 揉成小小的一团,和风儿说话吧
♪ Stretch out in the sun ♪ 大大地伸展开来,晒晒太阳吧
只有一次… But one time…
去看望住院的久美回来时 和父亲去了商店 after visiting Kumi in the hospital, he took me to a department store.
第一次吃煎薄饼,真好吃 I ate pancakes for the first time.
和父亲在一起真高兴… It was just the two of us.
♪ "I walk the road where candy trees grow
♪ I dance in the woods in magical shoes
♪ Nobody hates the smile on my face
♪ And every word I say turns into music"
哈哈哈哈 哈哈… Ha ha ha ha ha ha…
因为久美病重而总是阴沉着脸的父亲… Because of Kumi's illness, Dad was always sad.
很久没有这样笑过了… But I made him smile.
从那以后,我总是做这个鬼脸 来讨父亲欢心 After that, I tried to win his favour by making that face.
嗯? En?
总是设法让父亲回过头来看我 I wanted his attention…
希望父亲喜欢我… his love.
爸爸? Father.
上父亲想让我上的学校 选择父亲想让我做的职业 In my schooling and in my job…
努力成为父亲心目中的女儿 I worked hard to make him proud.
但是即使是这样… And yet…
久美穿和服的样子,可能见不着了吧 I wish I could see Kumi like this.
别开玩笑 Be serious.
到最后,我的努力也都是白费 But my efforts were in vain.
因为这样,留下了什么后遗症吧 Because of this, what are the sequelae
当我被逼急了的时候 I started making that face in tense situations…
就会做出那个鬼脸来 without realizing it.
你…在捉弄我吗? You making fun of me?
♪ bask in the sun ♪ 晒晒太阳吧
这就是我…这二十四年来的经历 That's my 24 years.
呵 Oh
这样子啊 Interesting.
对不起,这么晚了 还厚着脸皮把您叫出来 I'm sorry, I called you out at this hour just to…
而且还一直自顾自的说自己的事情 …talk your ear off. I'm sorry.
不 我很高兴 No, I'm glad you did.
我…您听我说话我很高兴 That's such a relief.
说不定以后会交往下去,所以我想 Now that we're seeing each other…
把我所有的事情都说给您听 I think you should know about me.
啊,真的 Well, I'm…
呵呵,很高兴 really glad.
The inn asked us to go easy on you for stealing their money.
旅馆那边打来电话 说是请宽大处理偷钱的女老师
教导主任也跟我说 Yet I heard from the head teacher…
你哭着向他请求保密 所以不得已没有向上报告 that you came crying to him to keep this a secret.
但是,那时! That's a lie!
而且今天早上,和你同屋的滕堂老师说 Then we heard from the teacher you roomed with…
昨天回家看钱包的时候发现钱不见了 money was missing from her wallet.
马上就还的 I'll return everything
啊 Ah
川尻老师,没想到你… Was it you?
不是这样的! 偷商店钱的,可能是… 不!肯定是我班上的学生 No! I mean it was a student who stole from the inn.
但是他本人不认账,所以我… But he wouldn't admit it.
藤堂老师的钱,偷了还是没偷? Yes or no?
啊,偷了,但那是不得已的 Yes, but only…
那不一样是偷! Thief!
不是的,请听我解释 No, I can explain! Please wait.
请,请等一下 Just a moment, please
求你了!求你告诉他们是你偷了商店的钱 Please come forward, I beg you!
你要是不说的话 他们就会认为是老师我偷的 If not, I'll be blamed for everything!
什么? Why?
Because I was trying to protect you!
为了袒护你,我说钱是我偷的呀
为什么要袒护我?老师你讨厌我吗 Why'd you do that? You hate me.
当然讨厌 I hate you!
啊,也不能这么说 No…I don't.
我明白了 All right.
我会承认的 I confess.
我会承认偷钱的人是我 I confess. I stole the money.
年级主任佐伯老师也来了 We've asked Mr. Saeki to join us.
可以吧 It;s OK?
说实话吧 Tell the truth.
偷商店钱的人是阿龙吧? It was you who stole from the inn, right?
我…没有偷钱 I didn't steal any money.
咦? Why?
但是刚才,川尻老师 A few minutes ago…Ms. Kawajiri
叫我帮她顶罪 在大家面前承认自己是小偷 threatened me…telling me to take the blame.
她逼我要那么做 She made me do that
川尻老师,你这个人! Ms. Kawajiri, you're despicable!
开玩笑也要有分寸啊! This isn't a joke!
那一瞬间,我觉得我的人生完了 At that moment, I felt my life was over.
学校当场就让我写了辞职信 我反应过来的时候… I was summarily forced to resign.
姐姐 Sis?
我要离开 I'm leaving.
不行!姐姐 No, don't!
不可以! Don't go!
我要离开 I'm leaving
不行! NO!
不行!哎呀! No! Oh!
是你! It's all your fault!
是你!是你! Because of you!
都是因为你! It's all because of you!
是你! It's you!
松子! Matsuko!
哎呀 Oh!
不要! No!
好像在哪见过啊,想不起来 I know I've seen this face before somewhere.
那个老太婆哭过哦 She was crying.
她总是坐在这里 看着河水,吧嗒吧嗒地流眼泪 She sat staring at the river, tears streaming from her face.
肯定是神经不正常了 She was nuts, I tell you.
你刚才"啧"什么? Don't "tsk-tsk" me.
我的妈呀! Fuck!
喂! Hey!
那个! Look! There!
这不是刚才照片上的男人吗 Isn't this the man in the picture just now
嗯,他正看着我们呢 Well, he's looking at us
咦? What?
喂 Hey!
哇,过来了 Wow, he's come
走过来了呀 He's coming!
哎呀? It's him!
喂喂,杀人犯! Murderer!
父亲来了电话,目的是为了… Of course, my dad called
确认一下我是否好好的整理了那个房间 Only to see if I'd finished the job.
松子是学校的老师吧? She was a teacher, wasn't she?
那又怎么样 Yeah. So?
听说歌唱得也不错 And a good singer, too?
管你什么事 Who cares?
那家伙活着时,就已经断绝关系了 We cut all ties with her.
但是… Why?
那个家伙… Because…
离家出走 之后做了浴池女郎 after she left, she became a "massage parlor girl",
后来还杀了人! and a murderer!
真行啊! Cool!
♪ "Hope to see you at the carnival.
♪ Outrageous swimming suits.
♪ The summer suit is too too hot. No way!"
How you been, my little brother?
好久不见了 突然给你打电话,吓了一跳吧?
有什么事吗? What do you want?
嗯… Nothing.
和男人住在一起吗? Living with a man?
是刚出道的作家哦,才华横溢 很温柔的人 An aspiring writer…very kind.
有你在旁边,我什么都写不出来! It's because of you I can't write! Go sell your body!
到浴池工作去,笨女人! Go sell your body!
至少拿点钱回来! Earn some money!
徹也… Tetsuya!
说吧,有什么事 What do you want?
借我点钱 Money.
果然… I knew it.
你是女人,多少都能赚点钱的吧 You're a woman. Get work as a hostess or something.
陪酒女郎也好,什么都行 It's good to be a wine girl. Anything
但是,我不想为了钱堕落到那种地步啊 I won't do that kind of work.
好吧,脱衣服看看 Okay, strip.
现在,在这里? Right now?
现在,在这里,全部脱了 Right now. Everything.
不合格! No.
你呀,不适合做这个 You're not right.
久美,好吗? How's Kumi?
那天之后,她就变得很奇怪 She hasn't been the same. She mumbles.
说些莫名其妙的话 Say something strange
或者几天都不说话,也不吃东西 Sometimes, she won't talk or eat for days.
不只久美这样 It's not just Kumi
你把整个家都打乱了 You destroyed our family.
不要再靠近这个家了! Don't ever come back.
从现在开始,断绝家庭关系 You're dead to us.
就这样 That's it
爸爸怎样? And Dad?
生我的气吗? Is he angry with me?
没办法生气 He can't get angry
父亲去世了 Dad's dead.
脑溢血死的 摔倒在厕所里 Suffered a stroke on the toilet.
就在你走了三个月之后 3 months after you left.
为什么? What?
♪ "What do I need to do ♪ 我该怎么做?
♪ to earn your love. ♪ 才能成为…
♪ Please tell me. ♪ 你喜欢的女儿啊?
冈野先生 Okano-san?
我过来看看,八女川好像不在家呀 I was just in the neighborhood.
我想知道八女川君的稿子写得怎么样了 How's Tetsuya's writing going?
因为他是我最大的竞争对手 He's my arch rival, you know.
他还是喝多了就打你? He still drinks and gets violent?
不过他非常纯粹呀 经常很 认真地说自己是太宰治转世的 He's spirited…fancies himself as Osamu Dazai reborn.
松子小姐 Matsuko?
老实说,他已经… To be frank, he's not…
我已经? Not what?
你回来啦 Welcome back.
我告辞了 I'll be going.
呀! Hey!
工作怎么样了? Get hired?
那个啊,没有…录取我 No, they didn't want me.
你就这样回来了? Is that so?
对啊 Right
冈野看了我的稿子了? Did he see my work?
看了 Yes
那个家伙一边上班一边写稿 半吊郎当的废物 He's no writer. He works by day.
不配与把人生奉献给文学的我来比较! I've devoted my life!
今天我碰到弟弟了 我问他借了点钱 I borrowed money from my brother.
不要 Don't
带着这张脸和弟弟见面 With that face…
还有意思向他讨钱? you asked for money?
他说要和我断绝家庭关系 He told me never to return.
那又怎样! So what?
不要一副惨兮兮的样子!喂! Don't look so pathetic!
脱掉!快把胸罩脱掉! Strip! Remove your bra, now!
啊! Ah!
啊!混账! Goddammit!
那天晚上 That night…
八女川徹也只留下了一句话,就从我的面前消失了… Tetsuya vanished from my life, leaving me with one phrase.
生而为人 我很抱歉
那一瞬间… At that moment…
我觉得我的人生完了 I felt my life was over.
但是,半年后 But 6 months later…
我却唱起了歌 I was singing again.
♪ "Isn't life just wonderful. Oh, my life's so beautiful. ♪ 活着真是美好 生活真幸福!
♪ Today's the much anticipated Happy Wednesday. ♪ 今天殷切的盼望着 快乐星期三
♪ Ah, the joy of love. ♪ 恋爱让人心情愉快
♪ I wait for you everyday! ♪ 我每天都在等你
♪ When you arrive on my doorstep, ♪ 亲爱的终于来了
♪ on Happy Wednesday. ♪ 幸福的星期三
♪ Suger, Pepper, Salt and my love ♪ 糖,胡椒,盐和我的爱
♪ Happy Wednesday ♪ 幸福的星期三
♪ Please eat soup!and Please eat me! ♪ 请喝汤! 请吃了我!
♪ Happy Wednesday ♪ 幸福的星期三
♪ Without you I cannot live, ♪ 如果没有你,我就活不下去
♪ but once a week I get my fix". ♪ 一个星期只要一次
你回来了 Welcome back!
我做了冈野健夫的情妇 I became Okano-san's lover.
我很嫉妒八女川君呢 I suppose I was jealous of Tetsuya.
又有才能,又可以专心致志于文学中 He had talent and dedication.
而且还有像你这样漂亮的女朋友 And an attractive girl like you.
有点痛啊 That hurts.
徹也吗? Tetsuya, huh?
对不起,让你想起不愉快的事了 Sorry…for reminding you.
拜拜 See you.
是夫人吗? Are you the wife?
这么晚了真抱歉,我在找一户叫川尻的人家 I'm Iooking for the Kawajiri residence.
是吗…好像没有这户人家呀 No one by that name around here.
那个,您是? You are?
不好意思,打扰了 Sorry to have bothered you.
我赢定了,如果是这个女人的话 I could beat her.
我很确信这一点 I just knew it.
松子 Matsuko.
-你回来了 -什么你回来了 -Welcome back. -Don't give me that!
-吵死了 -我没说话呀 -Quiet! -I am!
昨天晚上你去我家了? You came to my house.
去了 Yes
因为昨天晚上的事,冈野被老婆怀疑了 Okano's wife grew suspicious and confronted him.
被追问之后 坦白了我们的关系 So he confessed our love affair.
这样不好吗?那个人,和你不相配 That's okay. She doesn't suit you.
再说了,你不是不爱你老婆的吗? 干脆离婚吧,和我一起 You don't love her, right? So break up…
别做梦了! How dare you?!
我根本不爱你,根本没想过要和你结婚 It's you I don't love. I've no wish to marry you.
这么重的口味…我一点都不爱吃 Who can eat food this rich?
I just wanted what Tetsuya had.
我之所以会和你在一起 是因为你是八女川的女人
我对他一直都怀有自卑感 I felt inferior to him.
他死了之后,我为了赶走这令人痛苦的 自卑感,我… When he died, I wanted to purge those feelings.
把他的女人,把你… So I took his lover.
我不明白!你说什么,我全都不明白 I don't understand. Please explain.
我再也不会见你了,我们的关系也到此为止 We're through. It's over between us.
但是,我也有对不起你的地方 What I did was wrong.
挡不住你的诱惑 和你在一起太久了 I let things get too far. But I couldn't resist.
老实说,你的身体…那个真的很性感 Honestly, You've a great body.
一点心意 Please take this.
为什么? Why?
为什么! Why?!
为什么!! WHY?!
为什么? Why?
因为分手的男人跟我说 Because my ex-lover told me…
你的身体真的很性感 I have a great body.
所以呢? So?
我… I…
我觉得我能胜任这个工作 I think I'm suited for this job.
你啊… Are you?
怎么样? Well?
雇用她吧 Hire her.
这个孩子很有趣呢 She's interesting.
让我看看手 Hands out.
手指很灵巧嘛 Very nice.
努力赚钱吧! Good luck.
♪ "Love's a bubble. Nothing but trouble ♪ 爱情是泡沫,爱情是麻烦
♪ Let's play pretend love. ♪ 可是却要装作真心相爱
♪ Love's a bubble. Full of trouble. ♪ 爱情是泡沫,爱情是麻烦
♪ So let me lather you up" ♪ 现在我就让你泡沫飞溅
从今天起,你就叫做雪乃 Your new name is "Yukino."
♪ "Real love is taboo but I'll make you think it's true". ♪ 不要认真,要让别人认真
不管怎样 为了让客人快乐 Focus every bodily nerve on pleasing the customer.
♪ There is no waking dream, only money trading ♪ 有不醒的梦,只有金钱交易
要全力以赴 Go all out
对待客人 像妈妈一样温柔 像处女一般害羞
关键是如何控制身体 ♪ Thin without charm, even the mood will lose ♪ 瘦巴巴的没有魅力,连心情都会丧失 Stamina is key.
要控制好身体重心 To control the body center of gravity
只有锻炼手腕和腰腿的肌肉 ♪ Strong will, strong muscles ♪ 坚强的意志,健美的肌肉 Train those legs and hips.
♪ "Ah, golden shower!" ♪ 黄金般的淋浴
这个月的头名是…真了不起!雪乃,就是你! Our top girl this month is…Yukino. Great work!
史上最强,绫乃雪乃,黄金二人组 华丽的浴池女郎绝招,白夜店连日大盛况!
清纯在读女大学生,新鲜果实魅力
♪ "Soak up a bubble bath." ♪ 泡个泡泡浴
成熟职业女郎时代宣告结束!!
一转眼就被时代抛在了后面 Times have changed.
但是也多亏了你,让我做了个美好的梦 Thanks for the memories.
落伍也好什么都好 只要人活着就什么都有可能 We may be out of style but we still gotta live.
我要回仙台去,开个小饭店 Maybe I'll open a diner.
♪ "Love's a bubble. Nothing but trouble. ♪ 爱情是个泡沫,只有麻烦
♪ Money is the only thing to love." ♪ 唯有金钱可爱
我被解雇了? Fired?
因石油供应不足而引起纸张缺乏的流言 眼看成为社会现状
人们纷纷跑到全国的超市、商店
抢购卫生纸
甚至为了抢夺商品,混乱不堪 并且还有人受伤
对此,政府…
我回来了 I'm home.
从我离开那天起… Ever since I left home…
父亲日记中最后一行的结束语 都是相同的话 my father had ended each diary entry the same way.
没有松子的消息
松子… Matsuko.
爸爸… Daddy.
果然是这样 I knew it.
久美 Kumi?
哇,姐姐回来了 You came back!
松子姐姐,回来吧 My sister's back!
啊 Ha!
姐姐… Matsuko!
是谁? Who are you?
姐姐 Sis!
啊! Ha!
松子小姐? Matsuko-san?
这个,钱! Money.
跟纪夫说我来过! For my brother!
姐姐!不要走! No, don't leave!
昭和49年(1974) 松子 26岁
怎么了? What's up?
你睡着的时候哭了 You were crying in your sleep.
没什么 I'm fine.
我在河边溜达的时候 这个叫小野寺的男人 I drifted around near my hometown…
跟我搭话 and wound up with this man, Onodera.
两人一起打算在雄琴投机发点财 He was a slimy pimp looking to get rich.
我已经无所谓了 I no longer cared.
只要不是一个人 I just hated being alone.
只要离家远一点 And I wanted to get away.
I hate the rain. It brings bad memories.
我讨厌下雨 一下雨就会想起不愉快的事情
Let's make some good ones, then.
是吗…那么我今后 多让雨天 给你几个美好的印象就是了
我们散伙了? Are we through?
好啊 Yes.
把我寄放在你那的钱还给我 I want my share of the money.
我这半年赚的也应该有五百万了吧 6 month's worth of back pay.
没有 It's gone.
那些钱,我全给那个女人了
I gave it all to her.
什么! What?
我们之间的交易已经结束了 看看这张脸! Look at yourself!
这样一脸疲倦的老女人 哪个男的会想要抱你啊 You're washed up! No man will have you!
我要和那个女人住在一起 I'm moving in with her.
走开! Get lost!
真厉害… Very impressive…
来到这里后,雨就一直在下 The rain here never seemed to stop.
喂?别靠近我 Stop that.
松子! Matsuko!
不要小看我哦 Don't look down on me
你想找死啊?你这臭娘们! Who do you think you are? I'll kill you!
眼前突然浮现的脸,究竟是谁 I saw a face.
我想不起来了 But I couldn't remember whose it was.
痛!痛死了! Shit…that hurts!
笨蛋!干吗松手呀! You clumsy bitch!
啊 痛啊!脚痛死了! God, that hurts! Call an ambulance!
赶紧叫救护车 Son of a bitch! I’ll sue you!
痛死了你别走 我一定会告你的,你这个混蛋! It hurts like hell! God damn you!
痛啊 真的好痛啊 It hurts. It really hurts
乍一看还没那么痛… At first glance, it doesn't hurt that much
啊! Ah!
那一瞬间… At that moment…
我觉得 这回我的人生真的完了 I was sure my life was over.
尽管如此… And yet…
我躯体还是想活下去 my body wanted to stay alive.
小的时候谁都希望自己的将来闪闪发光 Every child believes in a sparkling future.
但是长大以后 Then you grow up…
自己的梦想,却没有一个能够变成现实 and nothing goes as planned.
既痛苦,又对不起自己 而且还反过来埋怨… There's only pain, grief and anger.
埋怨那都是阿笙惹的祸 It's all your fault.
咦?我惹的祸? My fault?
我真不应该 I'm sorry.
不是阿笙… It's not really your fault.
是我自己不应该呀 It's my fault.
我知道的 I realized something.
我之所以觉得活着无趣,是因为… Why I felt so bored.
是因为我总是指使阿笙做这做那的 It's because I expected you to do everything for me.
自己却什么都不做 And did nothing myself.
我说啊,阿笙… Hey, Sho?
人的价值 A person's life…
不在于得到什么 isn't valued by what one receives.
在于付出了什么吧 But…by what one gives, right?
我…认真地想过了 I've thought real hard.
我可以为阿笙 And it's made me ask myself…
可恶 为这个世界做些什么 what can I do for you? Or for the world?
所以我决定了 So I've decided…
参加青年海外协助队 马上就要出发去乌兹别克斯坦了 …to join the Peace Corps and go to Uzbekistan.
乌兹别克斯坦? Uzbekistan?
再见! See you.
喂,等等 Hey, wait
喂喂? Hello?
怎么回事? Shoot! What was that?
开枪!
别过来 Don't come near!
你的人生还没有结束呀 Your life isn't over.
寡妇 超级淫乱
啊,不要! No, we mustn't!
在这个寡妇开始真正的淫乱之前 As the widow was being ravished…
我就已经睡着了 I fell asleep.
又做了奇怪的梦 And had another bizarre dream.
好像…是被AV女演员绑架的梦! I was being kidnapped by a porn star.
小鬼 Kid!
合作点 Come with me.
哇 Wa
不是梦 It wasn't a dream.
干什么呀,你们,救命啊! 救命,救命,救命啊! What are you doing? Help! Help, help, help!
救命啊!这究竟是怎么回事呀 Help! What's going on
是你们! You guys!
等一下 Wait a minute
你是松子的什么人? You knew Matsuko?
不是,那个… No.
我,痛痛痛痛痛 Me, it hurts
外,外甥 松子姑姑是我老爸的姐姐 I'm her nephew! She's my dad's sister.
脸长得不错呀 叫什么名字? You're cute. What's your name?
叫,叫阿笙 Sho.
冷不丁的造访,抱歉啊 Sorry to alarm you.
我的名字叫做…水泽…村惠 I'm Megumi Sawamura.
他好像是社长的影迷 A fan of yours, boss?
哇哈哈哈,什么呀这是! Wow ha ha ha, what? This is!
这不是我的处女作吗,哈哈 Oh my God, my debut film!
泽村社长和松子姑姑是老朋友 She and my aunt were old friends.
姑姑的尸体被发现的时候,手里抓着的 When the body was found…
就是泽村社长的名片,因此警察才联系上她 Matsuko was clutching this woman's business card.
由此得知松子姑姑的死讯 So the police called her.
警察什么都没说 They wouldn't tell me anything.
我想知道事情的真相 就派了他们监视这个房子 So I had my men stake out her apartment.
然后就见到你这小鬼 They saw you.
那么?找到犯人了吗? Have they found the killer?
好像还没有 Not yet.
但是…十八年前…有个和松子姑姑同居的男人 But there was a man she lived with 18 years ago.
警察正在搜寻这个男人 The police are looking for him.
那个家伙 It's him.
那个… Pardon me but…
您和我的…姑姑是怎么认识的呀? how do you know my aunt?
我们是在… I met her…
监狱里认识的 in prison.
杀了小野寺之后,我匆匆跑到车站 After stabbing him, I ran to the station.
要去哪里? To go where?
不知道 I don't know.
只是不由自主的… I just went.
坐新干线从大津到京都 I took the Bullet Train to Tokyo.
新干线? Bullet Train?
只想坐一坐,因为我一次都没坐过 I'd always wanted to ride on it.
梦之号超特急列车 It was like a dream.
是吗 Is it?
那果然是梦幻般的快速呀 Skip it.
一转眼就到东京了 然后…在三鹰… Before I knew it, I was in Tokyo…in Mitaka.
三鹰? Mitaka?
就是玉川上水 想死在那里 I wanted to die there.
结果…真正爱我的只有徹也一人而已 Tetsuya, the only man who ever loved me…
如果徹也真是太宰治转世的话 believed he was the famous writer, Osamu Dazai, reborn.
我就死在这个太宰跳水自杀的玉川上水吧 If so, I wanted to die where he took his life…
死了到徹也的身边去… and join Tetsuya.
我不太明白你说的东西 I don't quite follow.
但是不管怎样,你并没有死 But you didn't die.
是没能死 I couldn't.
水到哪去了? No water.
那一带的水因为上流的进水口被关闭后 几乎都没有了 There's a dam up river. All you get is a trickle here.
路过的男人告诉我的 He was a passerby.
然后呢? And?
和那个路过的男人一起喝酒去了 We went for a drink.
啊? Ah?
是好男人吗? Attractive?
不,实际上是个寒酸的男人 No. He was the sad, introverted type.
你刚才是在想自杀是吧 You were trying to kill yourself?
虽然寒酸,但是… He looked sad…
眼神却很温柔 but had gentle eyes.
你有什么住的地方么? Nowhere to go?
我叫岛津贤治,是个理发师 I'm Keji Shimazu, a barber.
单身吗? Single?
老婆呢? No wife?
三年前,交通事故死了 Killed in an car accident 3 years ago.
他给我剪了个新发型 He gave me a new look.
心里感觉好像换了个人似的 I felt new again.
就这样和他过了一夜 We spent the night together.
第二天起,不由地帮他做起事来… I became his assistant.
喂,小贤! 什么时候找了个这么漂亮的新娘啊 Kenji, where'd you find such a beautiful wife?
然后,有个晚上… Then one night…
我不知道你有什么样的过去 I don't care what kind of past you've had.
不论过去你身上发生过什么事 我只想永远和你在一起! All I know is I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
这么说着,等我发觉时 Next thing I knew…
我已经唱起歌来了 I was singing.
♪ I couldn't find the words to even say good-bye.
♪ My heart knows only Fairytale endings.
杀了人 还能这么悠闲的唱歌 Look at that. A murderer singing happily.
不过… Yeah but…
声音真好听啊 she sings nicely.
走吧 Let's go.
川尻松子是吧 Matsuko Kawajiri?
我去收拾一下,请稍等一下 Give me a moment to get ready.
昨天,巨人队的长岛茂雄…
终于结束了十七年的职业生涯
1958年加入巨人队以来,首位打者6次…
川尻松子— 因杀人罪判处有期徒刑八年.
♪ People wake up. They work. ♪ 人们在这里,起床,工作
♪ They eat, they sleep. ♪ 吃饭,睡觉
♪ If that's life, ♪ 如果这就是人生的话
♪ Locked behind walls Nothing to do. ♪ 在这个没事做的牢墙里
♪ How do they find the will to live? ♪ 人们感受到什么? 是什么让他们活着下去?
♪ She did it for her family. ♪ 她为了家人
♪ She did it for pride. ♪ 为了自己的自尊
♪ She did it for a precious memory. ♪ 为了放不下的思念
♪ She lives for pleasure." ♪ 只为了爱而活着
♪ She lives for money ♪ 为了钱而活着
松子以前是什么样的我不知道 I didn't know of her life before.
可是我从没见过像松子这样一点不安、迷惘都没有的人 But she didn't look the least bit lost or scared.
只是盲目的活着 我觉得她很奇怪 She just did as she was told. She was different.
♪ "She wakes up to the same routine. ♪ 早上,睁开眼睛,重复着同样的事情
♪ Same faces, same places." ♪ 相同的脸,相同的地方
你没有喜欢的男人吗? Don't you have a man you like?
出去之后最想见到的男人 ♪ What do you think? Live ♪ 想着什么,活下去 Is there someone waiting for you on the outside?
没有这样的男人 ♪ What do you live for? ♪ 你为了什么而活着? No, there isn't.
♪ What do you live for? ♪ 你为了什么而活着?
不为了什么 谁都不为 Not for any reason, nor anyone.
松子 Matsuko
松子! Matsuko!
♪ "I'm living for a love, where there is love. ♪ 我为爱而活 如果有爱的话
♪ I can live on, for love is life. ♪ 就能活得下去,爱就是生命!
川尻松子接受美容师的职业培训 Hairstylist vocational training
♪ Warm and painful in my heart ♪ 心中又温暖又痛苦
♪ "Bit by bit love's changing me. ♪ 一点点地,爱情改变了她
♪ If God can let me live again, ♪ 神啊,如果可以改变的话
♪ I know I can change. ♪ 人会改变的
♪ I will. ♪ 我明白了,我觉醒了
♪ Right now. ♪ 现在
♪ Forever. ♪ 一直
♪ March on. ♪ 前进
♪ I live! ♪ 活着
♪ For love!" ♪ 为了爱
出狱之后,打算怎么办? What will you do?
和岛津贤治一起生活 Live with Kenji.
和他是什么关系? He knows this?
曾经说过一起生活的人 We made a pledge.
来探视过你吗? Has he visited?
没有,一次也没有 No, not once.
松子! Matsuko
只在一起生活过一个月? Just living together for a month?
松子! Matsuko
也不知道他有没有等你? He may not be waiting.
松子! Matsuko
♪ "For you and only you, ♪ 只为一个人,就为了你一个人
♪ I want to live again. ♪ 我会坚持活下去
♪ I give myself all to you. ♪ 全部献给你,为了你
♪ I've kept my heart alive. ♪ 我会坚持活下去
♪ To hear your voice again, ♪ 为了再次听到你的声音
♪ I've kept my heart alive. ♪ 我会坚持活下去
♪ So say to me dear, Welcome home. ♪ 对挚爱说欢迎回家
♪ Love is life." ♪ 爱就是生命
我回来了 I'm back.
昭和57年(1982) 松子 34岁
只要是女人,不论是谁 Every little girl…
都憧憬童话中那 dreams of being Snow White, Cinderella…
可爱的白雪公主啊灰姑娘啊 of living in a fairytale.
可是却不知道哪个地方的齿轮不对 Then we wake up one day…
本来憧憬着成为白天鹅的,醒来却发现 and see our white swan…
变成了黑压压的乌鸦 has become a black crow.
真是的… Damn it…
但是人生 One life…
却只有一次 is all we get.
如果这是童话的话 那这童话就太残酷了 If it's a fairytale…it's a cruel one.
你在听我说话吗?! You listening?
我和松子终于又见面了 Anyway…we met again
那是在银座的美容院里 at a beauty salon in Ginza.
啊,但是这太偶然了吧 Wow, what are the odds of that?
可能是… Maybe…
因为店名的缘故吧 It was the salon's name.
泽村社长和松子姑姑所在的监狱里 The beauty salon in Ginza…
也有一个叫"小茜"的美容院 had the same name as the salon in prison.
还没想起来吗? Still don't know?
是我呀 It's me!
东…惠? Megumi?
我已经结婚了,现在叫泽村惠 I'm married now…Megumi Sawamura.
呀,真的?! No way!
可是… But…
笨蛋!对方当然是男的啦 To a man. Don't worry.
哈哈哈 Ha ha…
真的呀? Really!
那之后,我们经常见面 We hung out a lot.
说很多话… Talked a lot.
两人在一起很快乐呀 I felt at ease with her.
和松子在一起什么话都能说 I could tell her anything.
我从脱衣女郎转行做AV就是那时候的事 I'd just gone from stripper to porn actress.
就是…你拿的这个录像带! You know, the video you have.
哈 Ha
寡妇… "The Widow is…"
超级淫乱 "a Nympho!"
啊,别这样 Not so loud!
那个发型也是小松帮我弄的 Matsuko did my hair for it.
没哭吧? Did you cry?
哭?当然不会哭啦 No, why should I?
经理的老公就在旁边看着呢 My manager-husband was right there.
怎么可能哭呢 It's nothing to cry over.
我不认输,不气馁 This world isn't gonna beat me!
小松! Matsuko!
我一定会成功的,我会让你看到的 Mark my words, Matsuko…I'm going to succeed.
和老公两个人,一定! With my husband. I promise.
你现在有喜欢的人吗? Are you seeing anyone?
没有啊 No.
还没喝够吧 喂,去我家吧? We need another drink. Come on up.
好! OK.
我回来啦 I'm home!
你回来了 Welcome back.
走 Let's go.
我还是回去吧 I'd better go.
小松 Come on!
为什么… Why?
小松从那时起,突然间… And then…some what suddenly…
像是要避开我似的 she began to avoid me.
本来说好了要一起庆祝她的生日的 We made plans to celebrate her birthday together.
可是那天她却说"还是算了吧" But she canceled.
很窝心吧? She was jealous.
啊,也不是 I mean…
好像…有点明白她的心情了 I think I understand.
是什么? 瞧你这样子 Oh you do, do you?
嗯? En?
啊 An
那个… That…
虽然看来是没什么不同… You two may have been alike.
但是泽村小姐你有老公 But you had a husband.
也有很好的生活目标 You had life goals.
可是…姑姑却 But my aunt…
孤单单一个人 was all alone.
生日快乐 Happy birthday.
恋人也好,家人也罢 She had no one.
谁都没有 No family.
不是有你吗 There's you.
你就是小松的家人呀 You're family.
啊? What?
我从来没见过姑姑 But I never met her.
所以现在… But I bet wherever she is…
天国的小松才想要让你了解她,不是吗? she's hoping you'll get to know her.
如果是你的话,肯定会明白她的 不是吗? She thinks you'll understand.
肯定会的 I'm sure of it.
什么呀这是? What is this?
所以,小鬼… Come on.
总觉得,你和小松很像啊 You resemble her.
一点都不像嘛 No, I don't.
那之后没多久… Soon after…
工作也不干了,怎么回事呀,小松! Why'd you quit the salon? Open up!
你在的吧,小松! Are you in there? Matsuko
松子感冒了在睡觉呢,你下回再来吧 Matsuko's got a cold. Come back later.
不可能,让我见见她,喂 No way. I want to see her face.
什么嘛,喂 What? Hey
她的脸成这样,是你弄的吧! Did you beat her?
你再乱说我就杀了你,喂 Fuck off!
小松!不能和这种人扯上关系呀! Matsuko! Leave this guy!
你回去 You leave.
清醒吧! Open your eyes!
和这种男人在一起,会摔进地狱最底层的呀! He'll take you with him to Hell!
什么呀,喂! I said fuck off, bitch!
吵死了,喂!
我呀 Listen to me.
只要和这个人在一起什么地方都好,我都跟着他 With him, I’d gladly go to Hell or anywhere!
这就是我的幸福! That's my happiness.
你…用不着你来对我说三道四! You've no right to lecture me.
随你便 Suit yourself.
不久之后我再次去找她时… Days later, I returned.
她却不知所踪了 But they were long gone.
那个时候的小松 Funny thing is…
痛快地说着"只要和这个人在一起 地狱也好什么地方都好…我都跟着他"时, when she was telling me off…
真的很漂亮啊! she looked beautiful.
十八年后在医院再见到她时 我吃了一惊 But when I ran into her 18 years later…
已经完全…变了个人了 I couldn’t believe my eyes.
同样的事别让我重复说那么多次! Don't let me repeat the same thing so many times!
川尻小姐,川尻松子小姐 Matsuko Kawajiri-san!
小松 Matsuko?
十八年后泽村社长在 探望熟人的医院里 再次见到了姑姑 When the two met 18 years later at a hospital…
可是姑姑话也不多说一句就要走 Matsuko avoided her. All Megumi could do…
was stuff a business card in her hand.
她只能硬塞了一张名片给姑姑 两人就分开了
姑姑第二天 The following day…
就被发现死了 she was found dead.
我什么都没有帮到那家伙 I wish I could've done more for her.
像是为了补偿似的… Instead…
她送了我由她主演的新作品… Megumi Sawamura gave me a present.
3盒成人系列电影 3 of her new porn movies,
和一个超级香艳的热吻 and a deeply erotic kiss.
阿笙 Sho
你姑姑…可是个比我还要性感的女人哦 Your aunt was 10 times hotter than I ever was.
你… you?
你是谁!啊! Who are you?
喂,等等,别跑呀! Don't run!
别跑啊 Don't run!
听我说,听我说 Listen to me!
听我说 Listen to me!
杀人啦! Murderer!
等等,等一下! Wait! Please!
等等,别跑! Wait! don't run!
我突然感觉… Something told me…
可以和这个男人聊聊… I should listen to him.
松子… Matsuko.
我一直在找松子 I'm looking for Matsuko.
松子… Matsuko.
你知道她现在在哪? Do you know…where she is?
他什么都不知道 He knew nothing.
川尻松子…已经死了 Matsuko Kawajiri is dead.
他听说姑姑搬到了日出町 He'd heard my aunt had moved to this town.
就一直都在找姑姑 And had been searching for her.
我真是个笨蛋 I'm a fool.
可以说一下你的名字吗? Who are you?
我叫… My name's…
阿龙 Ryu.
我是龙洋一 I'm Ryu.
还记得我吗? Remember me?
阿龙? Ryu?
和你一起的女人是? And the woman?
是老大的情妇 Boss's girl.
你是小混混? You're "yakuza"
那 So?
有什么事吗? What do you want?
啊… Ah…
没什么,就想和老师说说话 To talk to you, "Teach."
老师… Teach…
一点都没变呢 You…haven't changed a bit.
那个… So…
我,还是,先走了 I'm sorry. I'll go.
能见到你真高兴 Nice seeing you.
好不容易碰上… You could…
送我回家吧 drive me home.
Matsuko told me all that had happened to her…since leaving the school.
松子…把离开学校以后发生的事 全都告诉了我
和家里断绝关系 Disowned by family…
跟男人同居又被抛弃 dumped by various lovers…
做浴池女郎,杀合伙人,进监狱等等 massage parlor girl, murder, time in prison…
全都… everything.
是我害的 It's my fault.
什么? What is?
是我害老师被学校辞退的 It's my fault you got fired.
那说来听听 Hey, tell me.
修学旅行时偷钱的人 Who really stole the money?
是我 I did.
你就这么讨厌我吗? You hated me that much?
是爱你 Just the opposite.
我爱你,爱你… I was crazy about you.
我自己都不知道,为什么会做那样的事… I don't know…why I did that to you?
真讨厌下雨 I hate the rain.
我回来了 I'm home.
在这儿是地狱 It's Hell if I stay.
出去也是地狱 Hell if I go.
两边都是地狱的话… If both are Hell…
老师,我… "Teach!"
不要叫我老师 Call me Matsuko.
我爱你! I love you.
你爱我吗? Really?
我爱你 Yes.
永远在我身边? Forever?
永远 Yes.
在一起 Don't let go.
在一起 我和松子… I won't let go…Matsuko.
再说一次 Say it again.
我和松子永远在一起 I won't let go.
再说一次 Again.
永远在一起 I won't let go.
再一次 Again.
永远在一起 I won't let go.
再一次 Again.
永远在一起 I won't let go.
啊,再说一次 Please…again.
我和松子… I won't…
说啊 Say it!
永远在一起 I won't let go.
啊,再说一次! Please…again.
真烦人 Enough!
你去哪? Where you going?
到组里去 你不上班? To work. Aren't you?
我已经打电话辞掉了 I called to say I quit.
啊 Ah
等等! Wait!
求求你,别做危险的事,如果你… Don't do anything dangerous, please!
啰啰嗦嗦,闭嘴 Shut up!
别考验我的耐心 Don't tell me what to do!
可是,没关系 打我也没关系 That's okay. I don't mind being hit.
总比孤单单一个人的好 It's better than being alone.
好漂亮… How beautiful.
如果爱我的话就收手吧! If you love me, get out of this!
别当小混混了,好不好,就我们两人… I don't want to lose you!
吵死了,白痴呀你 Don't nag me!
可是,没关系 打我杀我都没关系 That's okay. Hit me or kill me.
总比孤单单一个人的好 It's better than being alone.
工作也不干了,怎么回事呀,小松! Why'd you quit the salon?
你在的吧,小松! Open up, Matsuko!
松子感冒了在睡觉呢,你下回再来吧 Matsuko's got a cold. Come back later.
不可能,让我见见她,喂 No way. I want to see her face.
小松!不能和这种人扯上关系呀! Matsuko! Leave this guy!
你回去! You leave.
清醒吧!和这种男人在一起,会摔进地狱最底层的呀! Open your eyes! He’ll take you with him to Hell!
说什么你这混蛋! I said fuck off, bitch!
不要! NO!
我呀,只要和这个人在一起 Listen to me, with him,
地狱也好什么地方都好,我都跟着他 I'd gladly go to Hell or anywhere!
这就是我的幸福! That's my happiness.
你… You….
用不着你来对我说三道四! You've no right to lecture me.
够了! I give up!
什么都无所谓了! I don't care!
你喜欢怎样就随你好了 Do what you want!
老师 What?
再也不说什么别当混混的话了 I won't ask you to quit again.
你要做混混,那我就做混混女好了
If you're "yakuza", then I'm a "yakuza" girl.
只要能和你在一起,我什么都不在乎 As long we're together…I don't mind.
松子! Matsuko!
那之后就像我对阿龙说的那样… From that point on, I lived for Ryu.
只为了阿龙而活 And did as he wished.
为了阿龙,在不知名的店里做女郎 He had me work as a hostess at some strange bar…
和不认识的人上床 sleep with strange men…
把来历不明的东西交给陌生人 deliver strange packages…to strangers from strange lands.
♪ "Stay by my side, my love.
今天,日本时间,刚过中午一点钟
在宇宙探索历史上 初次无绳太空遨游获得成功
♪ Warm my freezing heart."
航天飞船"挑战者号"的组员罗伯特…
然而,却仍然梦想着与阿龙的美好未来 I kept dreaming of a bright future with him.
松子!松子! Matsuko!
带上钱,立刻离开公寓 Pack up and get out of there quick!
家里危险!到圆山町一个叫若叶的旅馆来,要快! It's dangerous at home! Meet me at Hotel Wakaba. Hurry!
龙洋一才是我的全部
Ryu was my everything.
啊! Ah!
只有龙洋一才是我的生存之道 My path followed his.
我…再也没有比这更幸福的了 It was sheer bliss.
♪ "Stay by my side, my love.
♪ Warm my freezing heart.
♪ Tell me you're only joking
松子 Matsuko
♪ when you talk of breaking up."
阿龙? Ryu!
这怎么回事? What happened?
我把组里的钱拿去下注,没想到被发现了 I gambled away the gang's money.
我就逃了出来 They found out.
现在,组里的人正拼命地到处搜寻我 They're looking for me.
找准时机就离开东京 We've got to leave Tokyo.
到北方去吧? Go north.
去哪都行 I’ll go anywhere…
只要和你在一起,去哪都可以 …anywhere with you!
我…好想要个孩子啊 I want a child.
我的孩子? Mine?
生个孩子… We'll be a family…
然后三个人… …the three of us.
呵呵,没什么 Silly thoughts.
被发现了 They're here.
他们说只给我一个小时的时间 We've got an hour.
会杀了我们吗? Will they kill us?
怕死吗? You afraid to die?
怕吗? You Afraid ?
不怕 NO
我早就看透了 I came prepared for that.
啊,我还是做不到 Forget it.
警察吗? Police?
那个… en…
我杀了人,请立刻派人来抓我 I've murdered someone.
地点,地点是圆山町的… Come arrest me.
那个混蛋,居然干这种蠢事! That son-of-a-bitch!
走! Let's go!
我…又一次把松子的人生打乱了 Twice now, I had made a mess of Matsuko's life.
即使这样,我对阿龙的感情还是没变 But my feelings for Ryu hadn't changed.
我只会伤害别人 All I did was hurt people.
不管伤得有多深 Despite the hurt…
没法给别人幸福 I made no one happy.
我爱阿龙 I love Ryu.
松子… Matsuko.
阿龙… Ryu.
我能为松子做的只有一件事… The best I can do for her…
为了阿龙,我要做的只有一件事… The best I can do for him…
就是再也不要…和松子见面了 is to disappear from her life.
等着他… is to wait for him.
把松子… Matsuko…
忘掉 goodbye.
昭和63年(1988) 松子 40岁
你回来了 Welcome back.
阿龙… Ryu?
我一直在等你呢 阿龙的… I waited for you…all this time.
为什么? Why?
我害怕… I was afraid.
打出生以来从来都没有 To a person like me…
得到过别人的爱,对我这样的人来说… who had never known love…
松子的爱情…太耀眼了 Matsuko's passion was just so intense…
找死呀 Want to die?
觉得既痛苦… painful…
又非常害怕 terrifying.
上帝即是爱 "God is love."
不明白这句话的意思…却被这句话吸引住 I'm not sure why those words grabbed me.
可是…眼睛却无法离开这句话 But I found I couldn't ignore them.
上帝…即是爱
告诉我,什么意思 Tell me what that means!
请… Please.
告诉我 Tell me.
你以前…有打心眼里恨过人吗? Have you ever hated someone with all your soul?
能替这个人…真心祈祷吗? If so, can you pray for them with all your soul?
我做不到 I can't.
你可以的 That's okay.
人心是脆弱的 We humans are weak.
为本应憎恨的人祈祷,这不太可能 We aren't capable of loving our enemies.
可是…借助上帝的力量… But with God's strength…
却是可以做到的 it's possible.
宽恕不可宽恕的人 并且爱他 God forgives the sinful and loves them…
这就是上帝的爱 unconditionally.
宽恕不可宽恕的人… God forgives the sinful.
并且… And loves them…
爱他… unconditionally.
你回来了 Welcome back.
松子! Matsuko!
松子就是… Matsuko was…
我的上帝啊! my God.
可是我却… What did I do?
啊,别这样 Please don't do that.
龙洋一是吧? Yoichi Ryu?
大仓这个笨蛋! Detective.
警察现在怀疑你呢 The police suspect you.
随便吧 That's okay.
松子是我杀的! I killed her!
是我杀了松子! I killed Matsuko!
这个笨蛋,到底想干什么呀 What the hell do you want to do
♪ "Knowledge is endless."
这个笨蛋 This idiot
阿龙!老实点! Ryu, behave yourself!
这个人一定是想回到监狱里去 He wanted to return to jail.
我觉得是这样 And why not?
在这个没有了姑姑的世界上 再也没什么可留恋的了 The outside world no longer held meaning for him.
♪ "And stars reach into endlessness"
杀我姑姑的不是那个人 He didn't kill my aunt.
我知道 只是想问他一些事情而已 这个笨蛋! We know that. We just wanted to question him.
啊,说到这个,杀你姑姑的犯人,抓到啦 In fact, we caught the culprit.
是吗 What?
打电话给父亲时,他好像喝了酒 我说了杀姑姑的犯人的事 My dad was drunk when I told him who killed Aunt Matsuko.
他只说了一句"是吗" All he said was, "Oh."
就这样? That's all?
我还告诉他,姑姑的朋友… A friend of Aunt Matsuko…
说我很像松子姑姑 told me I resemble her.
我也想…和姑姑见一见呢 一次也行 I wish I could've met her…just once. My aunt.
你…见过她 You have.
什么? What?
♪ "Reach out. Stretch up high
♪ and grab a star.
♪ Stretch up. High as you can,
♪ and touch the sky."
你好 Hi there.
你好 Hi.
阿笙!到这来! Sho! Come here!
你儿子?是叫阿笙吗? He's yours? Sho?
你回来干什么 Why're you back?
没什么… No reason.
只是来看看这条河 I came to see this river.
阿笙啊… Well, Sho…
应该算是我的外甥吧 you're my nephew.
他没你这个亲戚 You're dead to us.
久美好吗? How's Kumi?
死了 去年秋天 Died last autumn.
肺炎恶化… Pneumonia.
久美的遗言,想知道吗? Know what her last words were?
久美说… "Welcome home…
姐姐,你回来了 big sister."
说着,就断气了 Then she died.
下车吧 Get out.
纪夫! Norio…
快点!下车 Hurry.
不要再来了 Don't come back.
拜拜 Bye
我见过这个鬼脸 I'd met this face.
姑姑的公寓旁边 有一条叫荒川的河 There's a river here…right near Aunt's apartment.
姑姑…常常看着这条河,痛哭流泪 She was often seen sitting by it and crying.
爸爸? Dad?
这条河很像… It looks just like the river…
筑后川… back home.
这条河真的很像家乡的那条河 于是我在这条河的旁边,租了房子 I rented an apartment near a river that reminded me of home.
再也不信任何人 再也不爱任何人 I would trust no one…love no one.
再也不让别人介入我的人生 Let no one into my life.
新的年号为…平成 The new era is called "Heisei"
我什么都不干 I did nothing…
就是吃东西,喝酒 but eat and get drunk…
Sometimes, I’d stare at the river and think of home. 常常看着河流 想念着家乡,就这样过日子
不准在这里扔垃圾 别太过分呀,这个混蛋 喂,喂! This isn't a garbage dump!
也不化妆,也不打扮,也不打扫卫生 I didn't clean, get dressed or wear makeup.
连呼吸都觉得麻烦 I barely breathed.
啊,就这样死掉算了,这么想着的时候… I was waiting to die. But then you appeared.
就遇到了你 I met you
你的笑脸,清澈的眼睛 Your smile, your unclouded eyes…
给我黑暗的人生带回了光明 sent a ray of light into my darkened world.
内海光司 Dear Koji Uchiumi…
我迷恋上你了 I went crazy for you.
我的眼里只有你 I saw only you.
只要看到你… Welcome to paradise.
我就无比的幸福 Adults will not find this dream island.
于是,我就…给你写了这封歌迷信 Just watching you…was sheer bliss.
So now I’m writing you this fan letter. 总觉得自我介绍写得太长了
I’m sorry if it's running long. 但这是我生存的意义
想让你了解一下我这个人 But I wanted you to learn a little about the life you're saving.
希望你能理解 I want you to understand.
最后,感谢你读我的信 Thank you for reading this far.
如果,可以的话… And if it's not too much trouble…
请给我回信吧 please write back to me.
♪ "Bundle yourself up, ♪ 缩成小小的一团
♪ and speak to the wind. ♪ 和风儿说话吧
♪ Then spread your arms ♪ 大大地伸展开来
♪ and soak up the sun. ♪ 去晒晒太阳吧
♪ Good-bye everyone. ♪ 大伙儿,再见啦
♪ See you tomorrow. ♪ 我们明天再见吧
♪ Reach out. Stretch up high. ♪ 弯出手臂,直伸过去
♪ If you get hungry. Head for home. ♪ 肚子饿了回家吧
♪ Sing as you walk, ♪ 边唱着歌儿
♪ and head for home." ♪ 边回家
为什么? Why?
为什么不给我回信! Why won't you write to me?!
吵死了,老太婆!这个笨蛋,这么幼稚 Shut the fuck up!
喂! Hey!
平成11年(1999) 松子 51岁
唔,真臭… Ugh!
没意思啊 没意思啊 Meaningless.
活着真没意思啊! Life is meaningless.
对不起 Sorry
对不起…对不起…活着… "Forgive me for being born."
嘿!你! Hey!you!
♪ "Stretch up high as you can, ♪ 弯出手臂,掂起脚尖
♪ and touch the sky." ♪ 让我们够得到蓝色天空
平成13年(2001) 7月9日 松子 53岁
川尻小姐,川尻松子小姐 Matsuko, Mrs Matsuko
小松! Matsuko?
你怎么了? Is that you?
不记得我啦? Don't you recognize me?
对不起,我有急事 Sorry, I'm in a rush.
小松,你现在在做什么? What're you doing now?
还做美发师吗?还工作吧? Do you work?
不,没有 No.
(那,来我这工作吧) 我正好要找专用的美发师 小松肯定… I've been looking to hire a hair stylist.
我做不了呀! Stop it!
对不起,我真的有急事 Sorry. I'm in a hurry.
小松! Matsuko!
如果愿意的话,什么时候找我都可以 Call me anytime…if you change your mind.
我等你啊,小松! Call me, Matsuko!
小惠… Megumi?
叫什么"小松小松"的啊! Who needs you?
人的价值…不在于得到多少 A life isn't valued by what one receives.
而在于付出多少 But by what one gives.
明日香只留下了这句话…就去了乌兹别克斯坦 Those were my girlfriend's words. then she went to the Uzbekistan
姑姑 你的一生 Aunt, your life was…?
我回来了 I'm home.
头型真不错 Your hair's a mess.
我办到了 That's better.
我办到了啊 I can still do this.
小惠! Megumi!
呵呵,小惠! Megumi!
啊! Ah!
啊… Ah!
名片… Her card.
阿龙说过的…松子姑姑是上帝… Ryu had called Aunt Matsuko his God.
可到最后,她却这么不中用 But in the end, she was so useless
这么不幸,如果这个人是上帝的话… This chronically clumsy and unhappy person…a God.
我不了解上帝 也没有想过 I've never thought much about God.
可是,如果…这个世界上真有上帝… But if God does exist in this world…
好漂亮… Beautiful.
像姑姑那样,让人欢笑 he'd be someone like my aunt, giving of himself…
让人打起精神 encouraging people…
热爱别人… loving them…
就算自己变得伤痕累累 while she grew ever more tattered and scarred…
孤独一人…不入流 and out of style.
甚至…笨得不行 Someone utterly unpolished.
我却觉得…这个上帝值得信仰 That's a God I could believe in.
松子姑姑! Aunt Matsuko!
喂,你去老太婆那捡回来 You go to the old lady and pick it up
那个人会捡吧 Can that woman pick it up
好啦,你快去吧 Come on, you go
痛 Ouch
呀,好险呀 Oh, how dangerous
呀,不好吗 Oh, isn't that good
你们知道现在几点了吗? A little late to be out, isn't it?
是中学生吧? Junior high, right?
快点回家吧 Hurry home, kids.
快点回家吧! Go home!
吵死了,臭老太婆! Old hag!
臭老太婆 Old hag?
♪ Stretch up. High as you can ♪ 弯出手臂,掂起脚尖
♪ and touch the sky. ♪ 让我们够得到蓝色天空…
姐姐? Matsuko?
姐姐 Big Sis!
♪ "Reach out. Stretch up high ♪ 弯出手臂,直伸过去
♪ and grab a star. ♪ 紧紧地搂住那颗小星星
♪ Stretch up. High as you can ♪ 弯出手臂,掂起脚尖
♪ and touch the sky. ♪ 让我们够得到蓝色天空
♪ Bundle yourself up ♪ 缩成小小的一团
♪ and speak to the wind. ♪ 和风儿说话吧
♪ Then spread your arms ♪ 大大地伸展开来
♪ and soak up the sun. ♪ 去晒晒太阳吧
♪ Reach out. Stretch up high ♪ 弯出手臂,直伸过去
♪ and grab a star. ♪ 紧紧地搂住那颗小星星
♪ Reach out. High as you can ♪ 弯出手臂,掂起脚尖
♪ and touch the sky. ♪ 让我们够得到蓝色天空
♪ Good-bye everyone. ♪ 大伙儿,再见啦
♪ See you tomorrow. ♪ 我们明天再见吧
♪ Reach out. Stretch up high ♪ 弯出手臂,直伸过去
♪ If you get hungry, head for home. ♪ 肚子饿了回家吧
♪ Sing as you walk ♪ 边唱着歌儿…
♪ and head for home. ♪ …边回家
你回来了 Welcome back.
我回来了 I'm home.