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提奥 在别人眼中我是个什么样的人呢？ Theo, what am I in the eyes of most people?
仅此一次 文森特.梵高顺风顺水 Just for once,everything was going right for Vincent van Gogh.
他刚刚卖出自己的第一幅作品 He'd just sold his first painting
然后就被评论家们誉为绘画界未来的天才人物 and he'd been hailed by the critics as the genius of the future.
他是个工作狂 产量一天一幅 He was painting like a demon, a picture a day.
其中的《麦田群鸦》可谓是幅革命性的伟大作品 One of them, this one, Wheatfield with Crows,was a revolutionary masterpiece.
这幅作品是现代艺术流派的先锋之作 It's the painting which begins modern art.
然而 还不到几个星期 这个达到自己绘画生涯顶峰的人却自杀了 Yet, within a few weeks,the man who had achieved it had killed himself.
现在想来 他为什么要那么做呢？ Now, why would he want to do that?
在梵高的一生中 他一直有着孩童般的信念 All his life, Vincent had this childlike faith that his art revolution
他的艺术革命会被人们所知晓 would be seen by everyone.
那么 这幅《麦田群鸦》难道是遭受挫折后绝望的呐喊吗 So, was The Wheatfield a cry of anguished frustration
他将永远不会认识到自己绘画的洞察力 that he would never realise his vision in painting,
抑或是最终修成正果后一声胜利的呐喊？ or was it a shout of triumph that finally he'd done it?
像这幅作品 它狂暴 生硬 有不可抗拒的感情因素 And this kind of painting,turbulent, raw, overwhelmingly emotional,
它会是给人们带来的新的艺术形式吗？ was the new art for the people?
艺术的力量 梵高
问问看吧 在你心中谁是一个 饱受折磨的疯狂的艺术家？ Ask anyone, who's your idea of the tortured artist, the mad genius?
选择只有一个答案 实际上也只有这么一个答案 Chances are you'll get one answer,and just one answer,
文森特.梵高 Vincent van Gogh.
把自己的耳朵割了下来 难道不是吗？ Sliced his ear off, didn't he?
其实 实际上他并没有这么做 Well, no, actually, he didn't.
他只是从耳垂上割下来了一小块儿肉 What he did do was cut off a fleshy chunk of earlobe.
噢 我知道 但是那也足以说明他精神是有点不正常 不是吗？ Oh, I know, I know,that's enough to suggest he is barmy, isn't it?
而且当他最终决定要自杀时 人们肯定会异口同声的说 And when he eventually did shoot himself,there was bound to be a chorus of,
“是的，他会自杀的，不是吗？” ''Well, yes, he would, wouldn't he?''
温柔的粉红色 以及血红色 Soft pink. Soft pink and blood red.
温柔的粉色和血红色 Soft pink and blood red,
路易十五的柔绿色和粗糙的兰绿色 soft Louis XV greens and harsh blue-greens.
如同地狱中的熔炉 An infernal furnace.
那样的一个人怎么能够创作出 像这样令人眩晕的作品呢 How would a man like that make art as stunning as this?
那种被别人诊断出来的所谓的精神疾病 What others diagnosed as mental sickness,
在梵高看来倒像是一种启发 Vincent thought was an illumination,
一种对艺术新的审视方法 a new vision of what art could be.
一个在我们的世界里对天堂存在的启示 A revelation of heaven, here on earth.
于是他把自己当作了一个先知 He thought of himself as a prophet, then.
同时也是个思想家 But also, as a thinker.
随着灵感的不断涌现 他文思泉涌 The thoughts poured themselves out in a torrent of words.
他日复一日 写个不休 Page after page, day after day.
最终通过读他写过的信件 你就会发现一个真实的梵高 All you have to do to find the real van Gogh,
他一点也不傻 而且还很有思想 善于观察 no fool at all, but a thoughtful,observant man, is to read his letters.
信件数量很多 有几百封 大部分都是写给弟弟提奥的 Hundreds of them,mostly written to his younger brother, Theo.
字里行间都散发着他的灵气 And you'll see that intelligence burning away.
亲爱的提奥 莎士比亚真是太优秀了 My dear Theo,God, how beautiful Shakespeare is.
他的语言和写作方式就像 His language and his method are like a brush
一只由于兴奋和痴迷而颤动的画笔 trembling with excitement and ecstasy.
所以这是另外一个梵高 他的心智不但没有泯灭 So meet this other van Gogh,not a creature of blind instinct at all,
而且还是个求知欲永不满足的书虫呢 but an insatiable bookworm.
我曾经或多或少对一些人进行过认真的研究 I have made more or less a serious study of Victor Hugo
其中就包括 维克托·胡戈和狄更斯 近期的研究对象 还包括埃斯库罗斯和一些稍逊色些的大师级人物 and Dickens, and recently Aeschylus and a few of the great minor masters.
好吧 在酒吧那个令人不安的家伙强留你进行谈话 Okay, the scary one who'll buttonhole you in the pub and bang on and on
他滔滔不绝的赞美乔治.艾略特和查尔斯.狄更斯 about George Eliot and Charles Dickens,
口中散发出的恶臭令你退避三舍 and you'll be backing off from the awful pong.
好吧 你知道二流大师中Fabricius和比德尔算什么吗？ Well, you do know that Fabricius and Bieder counted among the minor masters?
比德尔？比德尔？ Bieder? Bieder?
在那张疤脸和肮脏的外套里面 So, underneath the scabby face and moth-eaten coat,
文森特生活在想象的世界中 Vincent lived the life of the mind.
长久以来 艺术从来就不是首要的 最重要的是去寻找救赎 For a long time, art never came first,what mattered most was the search for salvation.
这是他的本性 It was in his blood.
他的父亲雷蒙德.桑多拉斯.梵高 His father, the Reverend Theodorus van Gogh,
是荷兰北部一个小村庄的牧师 was pastor in a village in the south Netherlands.
所以即使当他的叔叔准备把他从加尔文教派 繁荣的荷兰弄出来送往伦敦做艺术商人的时候 So even when he was rescued from the Calvinist Dutch gloom by his uncle
他正在外地拯救灵魂（传教） and sent to London as an art dealer,he's out to save souls.
正是在维多利亚时代的煤气灯下 真正的梵高出现了 It was in the Victorian gaslight that the real Vincent started to emerge.
在被玷污了的 迪斯累利（19世纪英国首相）的伦敦 Amidst the grime and grit of Disraeli's London,
这位古板的荷兰人对耶稣有了新的认识 the starchy young Dutchman rediscovered Jesus.
这是个古老的信念 虽然很老但是很好 It is an old faith. It's an old faith and it is a good faith.
我们的人生是一个朝圣的过程，我们的人生还是...... Our life is a pilgrim's progress, and our life is, uh...
这个古老的信念虽然很古老但是很好 我们的人生...... It is an old faith and it is a good faith that our life...
他把自己看作是个传教士 专门为穷苦人家传去福音 He appointed himself as a missionary to the destitute.
当他看到那些无依无靠者 酩酊大醉者以及娼妓们 And as he wore out shoe leather tramping past the dispossessed, the drunks and the whores,
文森特开始看不起画廊里的小世界 Vincent grew to despise the pygmy world of the galleries.
他想成为一名传教士 What he wanted to be was a preacher.
所以圣人好人文森特抛弃了舒适的生活 So St Vincent the Good abandoned the plush red carpets,
去寻找那些渴望得到光明的人们了 and set off in search of captives starved for light.
比利时南部的煤窑 The coal pits of southern Belgium.
对于文森特来说 那里可怜的穷苦人对太渴望得到救助了 Dirt poor and, as far as Vincent was concerned, in desperate need of saving.
这位年轻的外行传教士带着 卷了边儿的圣经和一只热心的猎狗 在肮脏的街道上巡视着 The young lay preacher took his dog-eared bibles and his eager retriever look through mucky streets
当拉焦炭的妇女们经过时就奋力帮上一把力 where women hauled sacks of coke, and did his best.
人生就是从尘世到天堂的一次漫长的散步 And our life is a long walk from earth to heaven.
那条路很长很长 A long walk from earth to heaven.
但是这还不是全部 But it still wasn't enough.
在经过试用期后 After a trial period,
曾经付给他微薄薪水的教会解雇了他 the missionary society who paid his pittance got rid of him.
显然是因为他热心的过头了 Excessive zeal, apparently.
但是梵高是不会轻易就这么屈服的 But you didn't get rid of Vincent van Gogh that easily.
他采取了另外一种布道方式 He hit on a different way to preach,
绘画 he would paint.
这将会是文森特的一项新职业 This would be Vincent's new calling.
而且还很神奇 And this is amazing.
他都快30岁了 这个年龄开始绘画可不怎么合适 He's nearly 30, he's not so much as picked up a paintbrush,
而且他也没有受到过太多的正规训练 much less had any kind of formal training.
但是文森特并不气馁 这个时刻 就是他的“路向大马士革” But Vincent's not bothered, this is his road-to-Damascus moment.
从某种意义上说 我很高兴从来没有学习过绘画 In a way, I'm glad I never learned painting.
我确信我的绘画技术就在我的骨子里 I know for certain that painting is in the very marrow of my bones.
我想创作出能感动人们的作品 I want to do drawings that will touch people.
我的目标是 人们会这样评论我的作品 I want to get to the point where...Where people say of my work,
他们会被我的作品深深的吸引着 that man, that man feels deeply,
而且人们也能强烈的感受到 that man feels keenly.
艺术会在教会失败的废墟上拔地而起 Art would succeed where the Church had failed.
我会为人们带来拯救和内心的安宁 It would bring salvation and comfort.
政府将会去关心她的子民 特别是那些穷人 Its ministry would be to open the eyes of everyone, especially the poor,
也会认识到那不可思议的生命力 to the miraculous force of life.
被日久折磨带来的无情冷漠所割裂的 Exactly the kind of vision from which they were cut off
正是这种对艺术的审度方式 by the grey relentlessness of the daily grind.
我仅仅是希望有更多更好的机会更多的展览 I just wish that there were more
从而能把艺术呈现给人民大众 and better opportunities and exhibitions to bring art to the people.
我的意思是 我并不想锋芒内敛 I mean, far from wanting to hide the light under a bushel,
而是期望着人们早些知道我的才华 I'd sooner let it be seen.
而且如果他是想让人们意识到天堂其实就在眼前 And if he were to give people a sense that heaven was in simple things,
起满老茧的手掌 一朵花儿的花瓣 calloused hand, the petal of a flower,
文森特认为 人们最好是把自己当作一个劳动者 you'd better be a labourer yourself, Vincent thought,
而且最好去向底层人民靠拢 和他们生活在一起 and you'd better head to the lower depths, and live with them, too.
还有 不可能会有比和一个人老珠黄的妓女生活在一起 更为卑微的事情了 And you don't get much lower than shacking up with a broken-down prostitute,
经常喝得烂醉 扁桃体经常发炎 由母亲养大 是个病秧子 habitually drunk, bad case of quinsy, single mother, sickly kids,
人生旅途中还有另一个人在等着他 another one on the way.
克拉辛娜.霍尔尼克.西嫣就是梵高收留的那个人 Clasina Hoornik,Sien to Vincent who took her in,
她不大可能是梵高的缪斯女神 would be his unlikely muse.
西嫣的悲惨生活就表现她的身体上 Sien's history of misery marked on her body.
下垂的乳房和粘稠的头发是梵高灵感的来源 The drooping breasts and stringy hair became the food of Vincent's inspiration.
他在给提奥的信中写道，世上再没有这样的老年女性了 There's no such thing as an old woman,he wrote to Theo.
在对如此老旧躯体充满感情的描写中，人们能领会到梵高的意图 And in the lovingly described lines of a used body,you can see what he meant.
一点也不奇怪 这肯定不会被教区牧师所接受 Not surprisingly, this didn't go down brilliantly with the vicar father.
提奥 不要故作正经 也不要太计较这些 Theo, no prude, didn't much care for it, either,
但是这并没有阻止他坚定不移支持哥哥的新工作 but it didn't stop him steadfastly supporting his brother's latest career.
不管梵高有多么乖戾 难以捉摸和毫不领情 No matter how surly, unpredictable or ungrateful Vincent was,
每个月他的弟弟都会准时寄来补助金 every month, regular as clockwork, the brotherly subsidy rolled in.
作为报答 为了不使他破产 In return for keeping him afloat,
梵高也支持自己的弟弟 如今提奥是巴黎的一名艺术品商人了 Vincent supplied Theo, now himself an art dealer in Paris,
他有画可卖了 with paintings for sale.
但是对于提奥来说 问题是这些作品卖不出去 Trouble was, according to Theo, they were unsellable,
下笔浓重 画面上一块块儿的模模糊糊的不知道是什么东西 dense, clotted, murky things.
亲爱的提奥，亲爱的提奥啊 My dear Theo, my dear Theo, my dear Theo,
你也太不厚道啦 what's so very contrary about you is that,
你总得回个信儿吧 one sends you something and one hears nothing in reply,
难道连信都懒得去写了吗？！ and you do not lift a finger!
但是提奥又不能说：“你的画我卖不掉，搞不到钱”绝不能这么说 But one is not allowed to say, ''I cannot manage on the money.'' No.
我觉得还得说上一句 我是不是不应该去问 And I should like to add that I shan't be asking you
对于我的作品 你是满意还是不满意呢 whether you approve or disapprove of anything I do.
但是自小一起长大的弟弟对梵高非常充满信心 他很是忠于这个任性又充满激情的梵高哥哥 But baby brother believed, and stuck by his cantankerous, passionate Vincent.
并不时每个人的忍耐力都很强 Not everyone was in it for the long haul.
对于梵高想把自己打造成一个荷兰好主妇 西嫣已经感到厌倦了 Sien got tired of Vincent's campaign to turn her into a good Dutch hausfrau,
她最终又消失在海牙的烟花柳巷之中 and disappeared back into the Hague gaslight.
确切的说 有谁不会离开文森特？ Which leaves Vincent where, exactly?
他已经30岁了 正如他说的那样 脸上的皱纹使他看起来至少有40岁了 He's 30 years old but, as he says, his wrinkles make him look more like 40.
弟弟提奥是他唯一的经济来源 For money, he depends entirely on his brother, Theo.
说到性爱 他更是由不适合到了不可能的地步 For sex and love, he goes from the unsuitable to the impossible.
而且还有这个他倾注心血的迟来的新职业 And as for his efforts in his belated new profession,
这一切在梵高眼中只是被轻描淡写的说成是有些不平坦而已 well, they're best generously described as uneven.
所以当回到父母身边时候 他已经不再是他们的心肝宝贝了 So when he lopes back to his parents' house,he's not exactly the apple of their eye.
我本能的意识到父母是很想念我的 I sense what Father and Mother think of me instinctively.
可我不怎么会说话 I do not say intelligently.
他们并没有欢迎我回来的意思 They shrink from taking me into the house,
在他们眼里我就好像是条脏兮兮的流浪狗 as they might shrink from taking in a large shaggy dog with wet paws.
“他会碍每个人的事儿 声音还特别的大” ''He'll get in everyone's way, and his bark is so loud.
一句话 ''In short,
他是个丑恶的怪物 ''he is a filthy beast.''
然后 就有事情发生了 And then, it happens.
“吃土豆的人”是梵高的第一幅杰作 The Potato Eaters is his first knockout masterpiece.
这幅作品是梵高到目前为止所有感想的一个摘要 It's a resume of everything he's felt and thought up to now.
这些所感所想将会令他成为一名 其实已经存在的革命艺术家 Everything that would make him a revolutionary artist is already here.
被选用的浓黑色彩并不仅仅是为了表现绘画效果 The dark, thick colour was chosen not just for pictorial effect,
而且从哲学角度 你会感受到些什么的 but you might say, philosophically, to say something.
而且那绝不是什么迷人的乡村风情 And that something isn't meant to be charmingly rustic.
我的意思是 看过画之后你会有多忧郁？ I mean, how brown can you get?
如他解释道 这是粪棕色 灰棕色 This is manure brown,the grey brown, as he explained,
它们是满是灰尘的锄头在清洗之前的颜色 of dusty spuds before they've been rinsed.
由于不是正规画家 梵高就像是个大老粗 Lost in total identification,van Gogh paints like a clod.
沾满颜料的画笔在他手中就像是一件劳动者的工具 The heavy, loaded brush doing its own manual labour.
画面看来就象是被挖过铲过而不是被画笔画过 The picture seems trowelled and dug, rather than painted.
创作者和创作主体达到了一种完全的结合状态 There's total union between painter and subject.
一切尽在掌中 It's all in the hands.
我曾经尝试着想说出那些想法 I've tried to bring out the idea that
这些伴着灯光吃土豆的人 these people, eating potatoes by the light of their lamp,
挖地的手和伸向盘子的手是一样的 have dug the earth with the selfsame hands that they're putting into the dish.
这一餐是他们辛勤劳作换来的 他们当之无愧 Manual labour, a meal honestly earned.
任何一个想描绘那些看起来很软弱的农民的人 自己都穿的很体面 Anyone who wants to paint peasants looking namby-pamby had best suit himself.
这几乎就像是他在尝试着使用文雅的土黄色和赭色为自己的作品着色 It's almost as if he's having a go at the polite siennas and decorous burnt umbers
因为这些作品将来要送到海牙和伦敦销售 of the drawing-room paintings he'd had to sell in the Hague and London.
他们是一群高雅的食客 It's this lot who dine in a state of grace.
这一份土豆晚餐 不啻是底层人民的一次圣餐礼 Their potato supper, a holy communion of the toiling class.
他知道自己创作出了一幅充满力量的代表公正的作品 He knows he's done something chock-full of power, magisterial.
兴奋之余 他把作品送到了提奥那里 So excitedly he sends it off to Theo,
而当提奥还在咕哝着说文森特那晦涩难懂的作品是如何如何的难卖时 who moans about how hard it is to sell Vincent's dark pictures,
巴黎却是一片欢快景象 when everything in Paris is bright.
提奥 Theo,
对于我来说情况已经很明显了 it's become very apparent to me
你不能够再那么不关心我的作品了 that you couldn't care less about my work.
去年我之所以对你的态度不甚满意 What I've had against you this last year is a kind of relapse into
那是因为你对我的态度已经堕落为一种冷淡的尊敬 cold respectability,
那会令我觉得自己是多么的没有出息 which to me seems sterile and futile.
但是有些事情就好象是和他过不去 But something's niggling at him.
也许他毕竟也从法国人那里学到了些什么 Maybe he does after all have something to learn from the French.
也许如果他也呆在那里，和自己的弟弟生活在一起 Maybe, if he was there,if he was living with his brother,
他们兄弟二人就能撼动当时那个冷淡的艺术界 together they could shake the art world out of its indifference.
通常的说法是当梵高这只荷兰青蛙被印象派吻过之后 The usual story is the Dutch frog kissed by Impressionism
就变成了一个创作彩色绘画的王子 and turned into the prince of colour painting.
文森特和他的作品最终放出了光芒 Vincent and his art at last lightened up.
他的画风来了个180度大转弯 Away with the northern murk,
深红色 钴蓝色 铬黄色 bring on the tubes of carmine,cobalt and chrome yellow.
这也不全是错误的 It's not all wrong.
文森特学会了运用色彩 并沉迷其中 Vincent does get colour, becomes addicted to it,
他把才华倾注其上 一股脑儿都表现在了画布上 consuming its brilliance,disgorging it onto the canvas.
曾经有一阵子 他的表现在人们看来像是一个入门级的印象派画家 And, for a while, he does what you're supposed to do as a trainee Impressionist.
在塞纳河下游的阿斯尼斯（巴黎西北部城市）捕捉住了光影你就把握住了关键 Down by the river at Asnies,trap the light and you've got the point.
所以什么东西都变得色彩斑驳起来 So everything is speckled and freckled,dappled and mottled.
恰恰在那个时候 周一是毕沙罗 Right then, it's Pissarro on Monday.
看看在这家饭店装饰的色编码点点 Look at the colour-coded dots in this restaurant,
你就会发现他原来是在完成 自己的点彩派画家的家庭作业 and you'll see him doing his pointillist homework.
周二是修拉（法国点彩派画家） Seurat on Tuesday.
噢 文森特做的也不赖嘛 Oh, Vincent could do it all right,
但是两者的一些东西也表现出了一个印象派画家的特征 but there was something altogether too decorative about the Impressionists,
即在自然光景中涤炼人类的存在 marinading the meat of human existence in the rinse of their luminescence.
梵高描绘自然的作品 Van Gogh's version of nature would always be earthier, clumsier,
永远都是那么质朴粗陋，气息浓烈，更加真实却愈加难卖 smellier, truer and still unsellable.
在梵高看来 这一定是提奥的错 It must be Theo's fault, thinks Vincent,
然后在当地一家咖啡馆组织了一次展览 and organises a show of pictures in a local cafe,
一双破靴子和剪下来的向日葵 hobnail boots and cut sunflowers.
从技巧角度上说 这些还有生命 但是仍然很空洞 Technically, these are still lives,but there's nothing still about them.
那双靴子其实就是他的自画像 The boots are a self-portrait,tramping the long, weary march of the pilgrim
是在向如天堂般的驿站漫长沉重的朝圣旅途中的自画像 towards a heavenly resting place.
而向日葵很难说是静物描绘 And the sunflowers, hardly the nature morte,the dead nature of their billing,
这些作品显得危险而神秘 these things are threateningly mysterious.
葵花籽竖立着带着一种难以压制的生命力竖立着 The black seed heads bristling with irrepressible life force.
有机体从一颗燃烧的恒星（太阳=向日葵）中狂暴的生根 发芽 Organisms landed violently from a burning star.
那时文森特开起来并没有加入印象派画家俱乐部的想法 Vincent hardly seems to be joining the Impressionists' club, then.
所以他迷上另一个不当的人也就不怎么奇怪了 So it's not surprising Vincent gets a crush on another misfit.
那个人是一位游离在印象派边缘的艺术家 An artist who's hanging around the edge of the Impressionist circle.
此人具有一种富有创造性的危险性 A painter who carries with him an air of creative danger.
保罗.高更 Paul Gauguin.
撇开共有的坎坷经历不说 这也并不意味着他们好像共同点就很多 It wasn't as if they had much in common, apart from their hard-luck stories.
高更是个圆滑的股票经纪人这让他能够游离于艺术的边缘地带 Gauguin, the dodgy stockbroker, allowed to lurk on the edge of art.
文森特是一个牧师 混迹于底层社会 Vincent, the gin-soaked preacher down in the muck.
他们俩会令众人有多难受啊 And how uneasy they made everyone.
如果梵高伸出一个令人不爽的拇指的话 If van Gogh stuck out like a sore thumb,
高更则会把这个手指戳进印象派大师的眼睛里 Gauguin poked it in the eye of the Impressionist bigwigs.
而且高更越是诅咒那些艺术品商人 他就会醉的越频繁 And the more Gauguin cursed the dealers, the more he screwed and drank,
而文森特则会在有大师在场时越发逞能 the more puppyish Vincent became in the presence of a master.
但是当高更离开巴黎向西前往布列塔尼时 文森特却没有跟他而去 But when Gauguin left Paris, gone west to Brittany, Vincent didn't follow.
他需要一个更温暖更利于重生的地方 He needed somewhere warmer, more regenerating.
那里将远离巴黎艺术界的冰冷 A place where the chilliness of the Paris art scene
对于喜欢收集日本版画的文森特来说 would give way to what Vincent, the collector of Japanese prints,
那里就是一个僧侣眼中禅修之路 imagined as a monkishly pure way of life.
禅与橄榄油 Zen with olive oil.
1888年春季 沐浴在普罗旺斯的温暖阳光下 And in the spring of 1888, under the sun of Provence,
梵高能感受到生命力在蠢蠢欲动 Vincent can feel the life force stirring.
就像向日葵 文森特把视线转向了生机勃勃的光影世界中去了 Like the sunflower, Vincent turns his face into the nourishing light.
提奥 Theo,
在面对自然界那具有压倒性的美丽面前 不管你觉得自己有多么的无能 no matter how incompetent you feel in the face of the overwhelming beauty of nature,
你也得去选择一个开始 you have to make a start.
同样 另一处风景 Herewith, another landscape.
麦田具有各种色调 旧金黄色 铜色 金绿色 For wheat has all the hues of old gold, copper, green-gold,
或者金红色 金黄色 铜黄色 红绿色 or red-gold, yellow-gold, yellow-bronze, red-green.
看看那些播种者吧 Just have a look at the sower.
这是梵高对让-弗朗西斯科.米勒一幅作品的另一种表现 It's his take on an older painting by Jean-Francois Millet.
文森特的版本呼应了米勒对劳动者那种充满感情的赞美 Vincent's version echoes Millet's lyrical anthem to noble toil.
但是米勒作品中的播种者是站在土壤中的 But Millet's sower is rooted to the soil,
而梵高作品中的人物却漂浮在一张鲜艳漂亮的毯子上 while van Gogh's floats on a carpet of brilliance,
就像耶稣在水面上踏波而行一样 like Jesus walking on water.
这一幕就像是在头顶烈日下 A scene of drudgery is dissolved into the fertility miracle
田间劳作场景仿佛融入了一个正在上演的奇迹之中 that's being enacted beneath a high-wattage sun.
梵高把这幅作品形容为有助于工作的一种狂喜/极乐/欢愉 Van Gogh described the paintings that really work for him as a jouissance,
就像追求极度兴奋的法国人 他就是这个意思 the French for orgasm, and it really did mean that.
这是一次情感能量的大迸发 并没提及有什么疼痛 A great ejaculation of emotional energy, not to mention paint.
“是的 好吧 那就是我去妓院的原因” ''Yes, well, that's what I go to the brothel for, ''
你肯定能听到来自高更那布列塔尼住宅的嘲笑声 you can hear Gauguin sneering from his garret in Brittany.
但那正是梵高为什么会否认自己 并不是为了那种可疑的欢愉 But that's precisely why van Gogh denied himself that doubtful pleasure.
如今 文森特真正想与高更共同分享的事情 Now, what Vincent really wanted to share with Gauguin
并不是一起去妓院鬼混 而是去寻找一个能迸发出灵感的休息地 wasn't a night out with the whores, it was a creative nest.
他长久以来一直企盼着能有一个工作室 What he'd been longing for was a studio
在那里 激情与对艺术的奉献联系在一起 where partners, linked in passion and devotion to art,
而且也能够在那里与助手一起生活工作 could live and work together.
但是他的确把自己的作品“靴子”和“剪下的向日葵”送给了高更 But he did send Gauguin the pictures of his boots and his cut sunflowers,
在他看来 二人是最有效力的组合 the most potent twosome he could think of.
保罗和文森特 终极双人组合 Paul and Vincent, the ultimate double act.
高更拖延了一阵子 到底该不该去呢？ Gauguin procrastinated. Should he go?
文森特热切的企盼着 Vincent waited in a fever of excited preparation,
就像新郎在等待着自己的新娘 like a groom waiting for his bride.
夏玛 文森特确信他们的工作将会 经受一个创造性的融合过程 SCHAMA: Vincent was sure their work would somehow undergo a process of creative fusion,
因为到时巨大的艺术能量将会被释放出来 from which a great explosion of artistic energy would be liberated.
只是在每一幅作品中 有一点渐渐明了起来 Except, with every painting, it became clear that Vincent's vision of the universe as a revelation,
文森特是把宇宙万物当作一个启示来看待的 水陆和天空之间的分界线消失了 the boundary between water, land and sky dissolved,
全神贯注的恋人们注视着那燃烧的星星 rapt lovers gazing at the burning stars,
所有这些都正在发生 除了高更 all this was happening now, without Gauguin.
从他开始关注色彩到现在 Ever since he'd discovered colour,
文森特已经入迷沉浸在对立却又互补这一色彩现象之中去了 Vincent had been fascinated by opposites that were also complementaries.
蓝色和黄色 红色和绿色 Blue and yellow, red and green,
以及这些互补色与感官感觉之间上演的戏剧 and the drama they played with the senses.
这场戏剧不仅仅只关乎审美 The drama wasn't just aesthetic,
这是因为无论从道德上还是情感上 梵高仍然是人们眼中的朝圣者 it was because van Gogh is still our pilgrim, moral and emotional.
在这个多产的夏季 梵高所有伟大的作品表达的中心内容是 At the heart of all the greatest pictures from this prolific summer
贫瘠荒芜与丰饶多产的两个世界的对立 is the opposition between barren and fruitful worlds,
同志友谊与孤独寂寞之间的对立 between comradeship and loneliness.
欢迎来到“夜晚的咖啡屋” Welcome to the night cafe,
这里是孤独与绝望的巢穴 the hangout of the lonely and the desperate.
我试图去表达这样一个想法 I've tried to express the idea
咖啡屋是这样一个地方 that the caf?is a place where one can destroy oneself,
人们会在那里摧毁自己 发疯或者实施犯罪 go mad or commit a crime.
所以各种颜色叫嚣着 互相闯入彼此内部 就像寻衅的醉汉 So the colours shout and barge into each other, like drunks looking for a fight.
被苦艾酒浸透了的文森特 撇开高更的爽约带来的不快 Vincent, absinthe-sodden, staves off his anxieties about Gauguin's non-appearance
一个劲儿的狂画不止 by painting and painting and painting.
那么于这个令人不爽的咖啡屋相对应的是什么呢？ So what's the opposite of a hellhole cafe?
家 一个温暖壁炉 温暖的家庭生活 Home. A warm kitchen hearth, domesticity.
当遇到鲁林一家后 梵高找到了家的感觉 Meet the Roulins, Vincent's happy family.
约瑟夫.鲁林是个邮递员 是社会中坚 Monsieur Joseph Roulin, postman, salt of the earth.
文森特画中 色调和正面人物姿态传达了这样一个信号 Vincent's primary colours and arresting frontal pose
即这个人很直率诚实 are the signals of straightforward honesty.
他不只是个公仆 而且还是个社会支柱 Not just a public servant, then, but a pillar of society,
身着制服的鲁林就像是个海军将军 who wears his uniform as though he was an admiral.
络腮胡也表现出了他的男子汉气概 And his whiskers proclaim his virility.
所以鲁林女士就表现得比较丰满 很具母性 令人安慰 So Madam Roulin is bosomy, maternal, comforting.
还有他们的英俊的儿子阿尔芒 身穿醒目的黄色短大衣 The handsome young buck, Armand, in his check-me-out yellow jacket,
留着一束小胡子 帽子一边儿翘起 caught on the cusp between teenage innocence and manly swagger.
正处于青少年的天真与成年人的狂妄的交汇点 The moustache wispy, the hat cocked.
他很热爱这一家子 而且也希望能得到别人的爱 He loves this family, and he wants to be loved back.
后来高更到了 梵高的仲夏夜之梦也就结束了 Then Gauguin arrived, and the summer of visions was over.
起先，高更发现二人之间友好的竞争很有趣 At first, Gauguin found the friendly competition amusing,
甚至能让彼此迸发出新的灵感 and even creatively challenging,
但结果却是二人之间终究还是有所不同的 but the result was just to point out the differences between them.
这里是文森特在丰收季节时 去葡萄园旅行后的作品 Here's what Vincent does with an excursion to a vineyard at the time of the grape harvest.
活力四射 跃然迸发于画面之上 A rush of energy through the painting.
太阳下众人弯着腰在采摘果实 Lots of bending and picking under that great sun god,
画笔以他称之为最富生命力的方式在画布上轻轻摇动着 the brush jiggling in what he called his best spermatic manner.
而这是保罗.高更的乡间劳动者题材的作品 称之为“烈日下” And here's Paul's take on rural labour, called In the Heat.
里面有两个角色 都是昏昏欲睡 A drowsy, heavy moment with two figures,
其中一个是头猪 one of which is a pig.
一个半裸的女性 A half-naked woman,
胳膊上一直到肘部 都是红色的葡萄浆液 her arm stained to the elbows with red grape juice,
阴影勾勒出了丰满乳房的线条 the shadow of her big breasts outlined,
这好像是在懒懒的期待着一次按摩 as though wanting the laziest of massages,
而画家手中的画笔好像刚好提供了这种服务 which the painter duly supplies with his brushes.
这并不关乎绘画技巧或者创作题材 It wasn't just a matter of technique or subject matter.
二人艺术表达方式的哲学意味大相径庭 Their philosophies of art were diametrically opposed.
对于高更而言 艺术只不过是纯粹感觉的一次酣畅的游泳 For Gauguin, art was just a swim in pure sensation.
“别担心 ”他曾经十分肯定的说道 “这只不过是场梦而已” ''Don't sweat it,'' he once crushingly said. ''It's just a dream.''
但是文森特.梵高却不这么认为 兴奋怎么会不出汗呢？ But for Vincent van Gogh, there was no joy without sweat.
他的作品会把你带进那个世界 而不是远离它 The ride his art gave you was into the world, not away from it.
而人刚刚同住了一个月（有资料说是62天） After barely a month with his new housemate,
高更就开始感受到了一个严重的空间问题 Gauguin is beginning to feel a serious space problem.
高更和我对伦勃朗 德拉克罗瓦谈论了很多 Gauguin and I discuss Rembrandt and Delacroix a great deal.
辩论双方都非常激动 极具情绪化 The debate is exceedingly electric.
有时候后当我们辩论完之后我们脑海里一片空白 就像是 Sometimes, when we're finished, our minds are as drained as a...
就像是一块儿放完电的电池 As an electric battery after discharge.
他对梵高那近乎疯狂的创作频度感到很厌烦 He's irked by Vincent's manic rate of painting.
一天一幅 有时甚至是几幅 A picture a day, sometimes even more.
而且他还开始感觉到了某些他从未想过却又不得不担忧的事情 And he's starting to feel something he never dreamt he'd have to worry about.
嫉妒 嫉妒？ Envy. Envy?
嫉妒文森特.梵高？所以为了驱走内心的嫉妒 Of Vincent van Gogh? So he exorcises his jealousy
他把梵高称之为画向日葵的画家 by doing van Gogh as the painter of sunflowers,
这个画家蜷缩在椅子里 身体与脸庞扭曲着 好像一个发了疯的病人 slumped in a chair, body and face distorted, as if already a deranged invalid.
没错儿 这是我 It's me,
但那是我抓狂时的样子 but it's me gone mad.
而且确切的说 我并没有疯 而是在承受苦难折磨 Not mad exactly, but suffering.
文森特是个癫痫病患者 而且还不得不与日益加重的抑郁症做着搏斗 Vincent was an epileptic and struggled with deepening bouts of depression,
来自提奥关于自己作品无人问津的消息 made worse, no doubt,
毫无疑问令情况变得更糟 by the relentless bad news from Theo that still no one wanted to buy his pictures.
深深的挫折感开始扇动翅膀向他飞来 The broody frustration began to surface in scary mood swings.
高更能够嗅到它的气息 Gauguin could smell them coming.
亲爱的提奥 My dear Theo,
我想高更可能不再对我有什么兴趣了 I think Gauguin's a little disenchanted with me.
高更很强壮 极富创造性 Gauguin's very strong and very creative,
因此他更需要宁静祥和的环境 and because of that he needs peace and quiet.
如果他在我这里找不到的话 他能在其它地方找到吗？ Will he find it elsewhere if he doesn't find it here?
好吧 我会镇定的等待他的决定 Well, I await his decision with absolute equanimity.
虽然还不太镇定 但我会尽力的 Not that much equanimity.
那天晚上二人起了冲突 That evening Vincent thrust into Gauguin's hands
一份报纸冠以“当地的一次持刀攻击事件”的标题 a newspaper article about a local knife attack.
最后一行写道 “凶手逃跑了” ''The murderer fled,'' the last line says.
高更并不需要引经据典为自己辩得清白 Gauguin didn't need chapter and verse spelling out.
他是谋害二人伟大合作计划的凶手 He was the murderer of their great project.
那天晚上他是在一间旅馆度过的 That night he spent in a hotel.
次日清晨当他回来时 When he got back in the morning,
发现有许多警察呆在屋前 而且屋里还有许多血迹 there were police all over the front of the house and a lot of blood inside.
弄清事情的真相并没有花费太长时间 It didn't take long for the story to get told.
大约是在午夜 文森特出现在自己最喜欢的妓院里 Around midnight, Vincent had shown up at his favourite brothel,
把一个小包裹送给了自己最喜欢的妓女雷切尔 handed one of the girls, Rachel, a small package.
包裹里是一大片耳朵 那个女孩当场晕了过去 Inside was a large piece of ear. The girl fainted.
呵呵 我们都会那样的 不是吗？ Well, we all would, wouldn't we?
当文森特出院后 发现高更已经离开了 By the time Vincent was discharged from hospital, Gauguin had gone,
然后梵高自愿进入精神病医院接受治疗 and van Gogh committed himself voluntarily to a mental asylum nearby.
亲爱的提奥啊 My dear Theo,
认为我会完全复原的想法是不切实际的 it just won't do for us to think that I'm completely sane.
如果我能复原的话 我一定要重新开始 If I recover, I must start afresh.
但是我害怕如果我康复了的话 But I'm afraid that I will never reach the heights to which
我就再也不能达到疾病引领我到达的那个高度 the illness to some extent lead me.
在医院里文森特被热心的医生们悉心照料着 Inside the walled hospital, Vincent was looked after by solicitous doctors,
但是疾病发作越来越频繁 而且更加难以预料 也更加恐怖 but the accelerating rhythm of the attacks was unpredictable and terrifying.
一旦他感觉好些了 就会小心的出去一会儿 He'd feel better, venture cautiously out
在得到一些信心和能量后 他就会开始作画了 and, gathering confidence and energy, would paint
他认为这会有助于延迟疾病的下一次发作 但我们都知道那是迟早的事儿 to stave off the next attack, which he knew would be inevitable.
他的疾病在是个破坏者的同时 也是个伟大作品的催生者 His sickness was both the destroyer and the midwife of his masterpieces.
因为在疾病发作时的痉挛间歇中 For it was precisely between the spasms of craziness
文森特看到了最热烈的世界景象 that Vincent saw the world most intensely.
于是仿佛着了魔 他也开始认为在人世间也应该有天堂的存在 Was suddenly possessed of his vision that heaven could exist here on earth.
他的使命从来都没有这么明朗过 His mission had never been clearer.
这些灰色的 炽烈的 汹涌澎湃的作品 These grey, broiling, surging works
它们并不是疯狂的结果 其实情况恰恰相反 aren't the product of his madness, they're exactly the opposite.
它们是文森特在崩溃边缘与疾病抗争的记录 They're the documents of Vincent's battle to keep disintegration at bay.
有没有人买已经不重要了 Whether Theo can sell them doesn't matter any more.
它们充满了狂热 但同时也很清醒 They're wild, but they're also deeply sane.
他是一个能完全驾驭自己绘画能力的人 A man in total control of his painterly faculties.
他也许已经感受到了地震的震动 He may have sensed the seismic tremors
大地在脚下隆起 然后裂开的大地将会再一次闭合 that the ground would once again buckle and heave beneath his feet,
但是手中的画笔却从没有像现在握得这么紧 but his grip on the brush was never stronger.
好吧 我就在这里 永远站在这里 Well, here I am, at it again.
我几乎能感到自己那再一次完全的清醒 I could almost feel I have a new spell of lucidity before me.
只有当疾病的攻击来临的时候才会如此 It's just that the attacks, when they come,
好吧 我不晓得 但是我该做些什么呢？ well, I don't know. But what is one to do?
世上无药可治 除了一件事 There's no remedy, except one,
那就是去工作 which is to work.
当然 我们苦苦寻觅的也许只是 What we're looking at, of course, is only incidentally
偶然的一节柏树枝（哀悼的标志） a stand of cypresses,
还有大如车轮 并且还在旋转着的星星 the cart-wheeling stars.
我们长久一来苦苦寻觅的 What we're looking at always
其实就是文森特的大脑在想些什么 is the inside of Vincent's head.
对于任何自我折磨外在流露过敏的人来说 For anyone allergic to the outpourings of the crucified ego,
那总是有些尴尬为难 it's all a bit of an embarrassment.
但是对于芸芸众生 But for millions more of us,
那却是一条联结彼此感情的纽带 an emotional connection is made.
他画下的每一笔就像是一个个自己的人生符号 Every mark of Vincent's stabbing brush seems like a personal letter to us.
在那些富有同情心的理解之后 We're moved by its humane openness,
我们被他那博大仁慈的胸怀和无条件的信念所感动 by his unconditional belief in our sympathetic understanding.
在1889年 梵高画了自己最后一幅自画像 In 1889, van Gogh painted his final self-portrait.
文森特称之为一次平静的学习 Vincent himself described it as a study in calm,
在作品中 他头上盘旋着一个个漩涡状物 which seems a stretch when we get pulled into the vortex
它们随着梵高的发浪在起舞 of all those whirlpools of paint that coil round his head,
当我们被吸进其中的时候，我们会发现它其实是种延伸 ride through the waves of his hair,
就像是偏头痛的那种悸动 as if the pulses of some engulfing migraine
这些无情的跳动随之传遍 他那那被侵蚀了的身体 were throbbing mercilessly through his invaded body.
这是身体和精神双重悲痛的临床表现 A clinical map of physical and mental distress.
但是他并没有屈服 不是吗？ But he's not gone under, has he?
把疼痛撞击声着色后形成的漩涡海洋 The cast of the face around which the swirling ocean of painted pain crashes
包绕着的面部表情却很平静 警惕 is calm, watchful.
而他为这些漩涡着色时选择的颜色 不知何故倒使它们显得不怎么病态 And the colour he's chosen somehow makes the engulfing waves less morbid.
相反 他内心坚定无比 Against it, he flies the flag of red-blooded resolution.
这位警惕且好斗的战士的红色毛发勾勒出下巴的轮廓 Jaw line contoured by the brisling red hair of the fighter, watchful, pugnacious.
在这场艺术对抗疯狂的英勇战斗中 For despite the heroic battle, art against craziness,
梵高知道有时候做什么也没有用 Vincent knew that sometimes nothing would avail.
数日来 我的思绪在疯狂的四处游荡 For days, my mind has been wandering wildly,
它一定在期望着下一次攻击 and it must be expected that the attacks
能够早些到来 will recur in the future.
很显然 It is frightful,
这种想法很可怕 apparently.
我从地面拾起一块泥土 I pick up dirt from the floor
然后就把它吃了 and eat it.
味道的确很糟糕 Worse, actually.
我努力复原 I'm trying to recover,
就像那些铁了心想自杀的人 like someone who was meant to commit suicide,
因为发现水太冷 又游回了岸边 but then makes for the bank because he finds the water too cold.
于是他生存下来了 He's survived, then.
事实上 他正处在一场创造力大爆发的边缘 In fact, he's on the brink of a great power surge of creative fury.
他烦躁不安 想到别的什么地方走走 He's fidgeting to get going, to be somewhere else,
期冀为这场爆发找到哪怕一处小小的突破口 to let all that inventive energy rip.
接下来发生的事情简直就是个奇迹 What's happening is a miracle.
他在画布上把自己内心的精神剧变酝酿成了一次革命 He's translating mental upheaval into a revolution on the canvas.
提奥意识到这将是哥哥梵高的伟大时刻 Theo sensed that this was a tremendous moment for his brother,
但同时他也担心文森特可能会被浓重的画面所吞噬 but he worried that Vincent might implode from the intensity of it.
如果真要发生一场革命的话 它肯定是在一处避难所酝酿的 If there was going to be a revolution, it would have to be one made in a refuge.
而提奥就恰恰处在那个地方 Theo had just the right place,
巴黎北部20英里处一个名叫 Auvers-sur-Oise的小村庄 the village of Auvers-sur-Oise,20 miles north of Paris.
一个恰当人选照料着梵高 他就是保罗.加歇特医生 And the right man to keep an eye on his brother, Dr Paul Gachet,
此人是个业余艺术家 但是要补充一点 他也是治疗忧郁症的专家 amateur artist, but more to the point, a specialist in melancholy.
他开的处方看来起了作用 The prescription for maximum output with minimum stress seemed to be working.
文森特好像又能与最亲近的人共享快乐时光了 Vincent appeared to be able to relax with his nearest and dearest.
我被这个广袤的平原地带深深的吸引着 I am absorbed in this immense plain
山脚下是广阔的麦田 with wheatfields against the hills,
就像海洋一样无边无际 boundless as the sea.
所以当自然景色成为脑海中的映像之后 So while the landscapes are mindscapes,
它们就变得疯狂起来了 they're anything but deranged.
它们坚定不移 无所畏惧 They're unflinching, tumultuous, heroic,
如英雄般喧嚣着 还是全新的 and completely new.
而且这是其中最令人吃惊的 And here's the most startling of them all,
“麦田群鸦” Wheatfield with Crows.
这并不是假设去谈论梵高的虚弱 Not for what it's supposed to say about van Gogh's frailty,
因为从根本上我并不认为 创作这幅作品的艺术家是脆弱的 because I don't think the artist who painted this was frail at all,
但是这幅作品却关乎艺术创作的传统 but for what it says about the conventions of art.
这幅作品表现出了梵高个人的完全支配能力 It shows Vincent in total command,
再也没有像他那样猛烈的蔑视传统的人了 never fiercer in his contempt for the rules.
在他执著的摈弃风景绘画的整个历史之后 In his headlong rush to junk the entire history of landscape painting.
他开始运用透视画法 Starting with perspective.
其关注的焦点就定在如何去 创作关于内心深处的一个幻象 Its whole point had been to create an illusion of deep space,
所以画家的眼睛将会在遥远的地平线上游弋 so that the eye could confidently wander through to a distant horizon.
但是这里的透视画法是颠倒的 是一条死路 哪儿也去不了 But here perspective is reversed, it's a road that goes nowhere.
作品两翼的路径好像是垂直升起的 And the two flanking paths just seem to rise up vertically
它们穿过画面 像是扑动的翅膀 through the picture, like flapping wings.
这些绿边是什么 草 篱笆 抑或是树木的一部分？ And what are those green borders? Grass, hedges, a corner of a tree?
关于如何阅读视觉标记的含义 All our signals, our assumptions about how to read visual signs
我们所有的假设和讯号已经乱成一团糟了 have been wickedly scrambled.
那么 我们究竟在寻找什么呢？ So what are we looking at?
有点窒息 那是肯定的 但是也有些兴高采烈 Suffocation, sure, but elation too.
那些乌鸦可能会朝我们飞过来 Those crows might be coming at us,
但是那些乌鸦也可能会飞走 魔鬼（乌鸦是阴间使者） 飞走了 but equally they might be flying away, demons gone,
但同样的 当我们完全沉浸在大自然的力量之中 as we sink into a total immersion in the power of nature.
当我们沉浸在由挣扎而又灿烂辉煌的作品构成的一面厚重的墙壁中时 And into a massive wall of writhing, brilliant paint
这幅画中的颜色好像在颤抖悸动 在摇摆不定 in which the colour itself seems to tremble and pulse and sway.
正是由这些一块块颜色 堆砌成的一个无拘无束的生命 And it's with this independent life of formed blocks of colour
令梵高创造出了现代主义艺术 that Vincent van Gogh creates modern art.
在因为恐惧而发抖的同时 This physical feeling, simultaneously thrilling and terrifying,
这种被画面活生生的吞下去的感觉 of being swallowed alive in paint,
存在于许多现代主义作品之中 lies at the heart of so much modern art.
自从在荷兰北部黑暗荒野中第一次拿起画笔的时候 And it was what Vincent had been yearning to realise, ever since he picked up a brush
这就是梵高长久以来所向往的境界 on the dark moors of north Holland.
他的朝圣之旅已经坚持到了最后 The pilgrim had gone the distance.
我并不认为有哪怕是一丁点 这样的可能性的存在 I don't think there's the slightest possibility that accomplishing this revolution
即梵高是在认为这场艺术革命已经接近尾声 所以才有了自杀的渴望 could have been a moment of suicidal despair for Vincent van Gogh.
在他的作品里 他从来没有像如今这样富于想象力 这样才华横溢 In his art, he'd never been more visionary, never more brilliant,
但他的生活却不是这样 but not in his life.
因为春天过去夏天来临 文森特真切的意识到了前方的麻烦 For as spring turned to summer, Vincent really did think trouble lay ahead.
正巧在自己的作品开始吃香的时候 Even as his own painting was going brilliantly,
他最可信赖的人-提奥开始有些动摇了 his tower of strength, Theo, began to look shaky.
家庭带给他的天伦之乐如今变成了忧虑 甚至是痛苦 The pleasure he'd taken in his family now turned to worry, and even pain.
也许是提奥不得不把妻儿放在第一位 Perhaps Theo's wife and baby would have to come first.
亲爱的弟弟 弟妹 Dear brother and sister,
我仍然能感受到带给你们危险的那场风暴 我也不好受 I still continue to feel the storm which threatens you, weighing on me too.
你是知道的 我努力去真正的快乐起来 You see, I try to be genuinely cheerful,
但我的生活也举步维艰 but my life is also threatened at the very root
我的脚步摇摆不定 不能前行 and my steps are wavering.
而你却连举手之劳都不肯帮 And you do not lift a finger.
当提奥从巴黎赶来时 文森特已经受了重伤 When Theo arrived from Paris, he found Vincent mortally wounded,
他向自己的腹部开了一枪 a single shot to the abdomen.
兄弟俩偎依在一起 The two brothers stayed together.
过了一会儿 提奥对哥哥的恢复还持乐观态度 For a while, Theo was optimistic about Vincent's chances of recovery.
但是一天后 梵高高烧不退随后失去了知觉 But then, a day later, the fever mounted and Vincent slipped from consciousness.
1890年7月29日 梵高在弟弟提奥的怀里死去了 Theo held him as he died on the 29th of July, 1890.
他死去的那一刻正是他人生意义被证明了的时刻 Gone precisely at the moment when his entire life was being vindicated.
同样 提奥也相信文森特时代终于来临了 Theo believed that as well, that Vincent's time had finally arrived,
但是却太晚了 but it was too late.
不仅仅是对梵高而言 提奥也是如此 Not just for Vincent, but for Theo,
他的健康状况开始恶化 不到一年也去世了 his own health deteriorated and within a year he was dead, too.
终于 就像生前一样 There they are, side-by-side in death,
兄弟二人又能呆在一起了 as they had very much been wherever they were in life.
在最后一封写给提奥的信中写道 In his last letter to Theo, Vincent wrote
他自己并不想要孩子 他的作品就是他的后代 of how, not managing to have children, his paintings were his progeny.
但是他的确有一个孩子 表现主义 But he did have a child, of course, Expressionism.
而且还有许许多多的继承人 And many, many heirs,
考考斯卡 德库宁 霍华德.霍奇金 杰克森.波拉克 Kokoschka, de Kooning, Howard Hodgkin,Jackson Pollock.
但是关于梵高的遗产还有些别的东西 But there's something about van Gogh's legacy
它比那些现代艺术中冠以这个那个主义更重要 which is much more important than his fathering this or that ism of modern art.
文森特持有一个充满热情的信念 Vincent's passionate belief was that people wouldn't just see his pictures,
人们不会仅仅是去观看他的作品 而是去感受作品中那汹涌澎湃的生命力 but feel the rush of life in them.
通过画笔的力量和眩目的色彩 That by the force of his brush and the dazzlement of his colour,
人们将会通过比那些曾经可能存在的传达方式 都更为文雅的方式 they'd experience those fields,those faces, those flowers,
去体验那些土地 那些面孔 那些花朵 in ways nothing more polite or literal could ever possibly convey.
他的作品将会收回那些曾经属于宗教的东西 His art would reclaim what had once belonged to religion,
它们会在富有天赋才能的生命 渐逝的过程中给我们人类以安慰 consolation for our mortality through the relish of the gift of life.
可这并不是他所追求的 It wasn't the art crowd he was after.
他想的是 What he wanted was to open the eyes
令观众们打开眼界，敞开胸怀 and the hearts of everyone who saw his paintings.
那么 他得偿所愿了 Well, he got what he wanted.
在大部分人眼里，我是怎样的一个人? What am I, in the eyes of most people?
一个无足轻重的人？一个行为古怪的人？ A nonentity? An eccentric?
一个令人生厌的人？ An unpleasant person?
一个现在没有社会地位而且将来永远也不会有的人 一句话 万千俗人中最俗的那一个 Somebody who has no position in society and never will. In short, the lowest of the low.
那么好吧 即使这些绝对都是真的 Alright then, well, even if that were all absolutely true,
若有机会的话 then one day,
我将通过我的作品向大家展示 I should like to show by my work
一个像我这样无足轻重的人 what such a nonentity, such a nobody
他的心中究竟有些什么东西 has in his heart.
此致 With a handshake,
你们永远的-----梵高 ever yours, Vincent.